Birthday Celebration… strippers?

Yes it’s a two for day! Ok the birthday came and went, well the celebration. It was a very low key I gathered with 8 of my good friends and we did dinner at Maggiano’s, and man was it good. I love Maggiano’s so much. I had some very good friends I’ve had for a while and some new ones. It was a good nite and I had a DATE, yeah the new man went with me. I have a group of friends who are, how shall we say, very outspoken, and he fit right in. It’s the large personality thing. LOL, but something tells me there is a lot to learn about him. Kinda of like an oinion, there are many layers to him. But more on that later.

But the day began with me and Thomas going to the gay rugby match. It was full of beefy boys, great eye candy. I had my work out partner, who never worked out with me come up to me and I had no clue who he was, I suck at recognizing people after talking on line or meeting once. I think he was pissed but hey I was honest I didn’t know who he was. Then the rugby team had a beer bust at Burkharts and we went, none of the rugby boys were there, and we left around 4:30 to get to dinner by 6. I was told by M&T that we were going to the early bird special. But the one in Buckhead only had 3 or 10, so when Perimeter said 6 I was on that. So we went to dinner. The only problem with dinner is that it was too noisy and J2 sat at the end of the table and he didn’t get a chance to say anything with Thomas, or my end of the table. Well next year I think I’ll have a party so everyone can talk. But the food was great, the only thing I wanted was Veal Parmesan. Which I got and killer chocolate cake. I think our waiter Mike was gay. He is a beefy Italian guy, he was sexy to me. But it was a low key night. M&T gave me the Oprah 20th anniversary DVD set, which I wanted, yeah I can be such a homo at times, and got a few other things and Mr. Thomas was dead on in his gift it was scary.

Then me and Thomas went back to his house and hung out and M&T went over to see J&B new house, which shhh you didn’t hear it from me but J&B are no more, so they went with B. then we went to the Eagle for a minute and I had a drink and then went back to Mr. Thomas’ house. It was great. The Eagle T asked me what my angle was, he said me dating was unnatural LOL, you have to know him, he said “Your angle is he’s rich and you’re going to roll him” LOL god I love those too. We went to the gift shop, aka the leather store, and they have a lace up lather jock, if I had been working I would have bought it for myself for my birthday, and put it on right there LOL but alas, no money.

And no there is not hot story like the thong from the stripper last year, but there will be a make up date for naked people. I hopefully will have a good story to tell about that.

If it ain’t broke don’ fix it…. The new Poseidon Adventure.

Ok, I finally got finished watching the new Poseidon Adventure on NBC that I taped, yeah I taped it, not in the Tivo generation yet. I’m still on the A/V limited access road rather then the information super highway. One thing you should know is that I love 70’s disaster flicks. Airport, all four movies, Towering Inferno, and Earthquake. I had my reservations about the redo of one of the most classic disaster films of all time. The original had a great cast, Gene Hackman, Shelley Winters, Leslie Neilson, Earnest Borgnine, Red Buttons, Roddy McDowell and Jack Albertson. Compare this to the new cast Adam Baldwin, Ruetger Hower, Steve Goutenberg, and C. Thomas Howell. Not exactly a step up from the original cast.

Moving on to the plot, well the original is set on New Years eve, when a tidal wave comes and capsizes the ship, and they have to race up through the ship and the obstacles they encounter. Who could forget the “Manny!” screams for Shelley Winters. But the new version had, instead of a tidal wave, terrorist plant bombs on the ship and explode one and the ship capsizes. Now, forget all about the characters in the original. We have a dysfunctional family and the affair the father has with a waitress, the bishop and the Shelley Winters character.

Well continuing on the plot. This plot had to been the worst for a remake. You know there are two philosophies for doing a remake. 1. Either make it better then the original, which happens from time to time, sorta like Oceans 11. 2. Make it campy as hell. Best example of this is the Brady Bunch. This did neither. This would be making Lord of the Rings with the cast of any WB comedy. Just wouldn’t work.

I can’t believe I actually taped it and watched it. Will I ever learn? I should know better then watch a Made for TV movie. If I want Drama I should go tune in Lifetime, at least they know drama.

Hot Guy of the Week #8

A cutie


The muscle boy next door

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

I HAD A DATE!

Yes its true. Well it was a meet someone off line, but it turned out to be a three hour conversation. So I guess that would be considered a date. I consider those one hour, meet and greets, just that, nothing more. But I met Thomas: The Mo, as he requested to be referred by. And for the record, I did tell him I was going to write about him in the blog. Ok on with the story, we met, well I’ll leave that a mystery for now, but it was online and we did chat for about two weeks. I have my late class on Monday nights and we met at a bar in East Atlanta and we talked for three hours, I kid you not. And the really amazing thing is I never checked my watch aka cell phone, once for the time. With me that’s pretty good, in fact that’s’ just damn amazing. But Thomas was just so easy to talk to and the night just zoomed by. I wish we could have talked more but I needed to get home and get stuff for class the next day.

But let me tell you about him, first off he’s got the guy next door looks, which we all know I like more then anything. With me keep the models and the people like that, they are stuck on themselves. Just regular guys just get me going and get my attention. Well, he also has a large personality, which means he’s very colorful and funny and just he has a presence about him with I really like. Get your minds out of the gutter too, I know what you were thinking. He has a job, which is good and it’s involved in the arts, and I think he’s pretty intelligent as well, and we all know I can’t go out with a stupid guy, nothing drives me crazy then trying to talk about things in the world and they look at you like you’re speaking Chinese. With Thomas I can actually talk and I have realized that what I’ve said before, I want man who’s smart but also intelligent in other areas then me. I think this is Thomas too. It’s been pretty interesting.

And yes I have been myself and stated things up front. The truth from the beginning. Which I have gotten flack from many readers and friends. You shouldn’t do that and you shouldn’t say that and all sorts of stuff, Well I think Thomas is the same way, we’ve joked about both being commitment phobic, and I know I am, and it’s pretty cool, he’s just laid back and easy going about things. But the great thing about him is his sense of humor, OMG he made me laugh all night long and I hope I made him laugh too. Sense of humor is the key for me, make me laugh and you’re so in. Nothing sexier then a funny man.

But, we’ve chatted since our date, which was 3 days ago and both say we want to take things really slow and let things happen and evolve over time. Which is awesome to me, in this town you’re married after a week. I don’t want someone to marry, I want someone to get to know, hang out and take it from there. We’ll just take it one day at a time and see what happens. BTW he has his own blog too, so I’ll post a link to it as well. Just wanted to let you know what was going on and I did have a date! And yes we have another date in the works and a third, go figure, LOL, this is new to me, a third date, wonder what you do on it LOL, and for the record, we didn’t have sex the night we met, just talk and a hug!

I have a following! Well 3 steady readers but It’s a start.

Ok, well it’s not all that, but I have knowledge of a few regular readers. Which I’m pretty psyched about. I am very happy how the blog has taken off. I have a few really good links, from the view from 35,000 feet which does blog reviews, thanks guys and from Rocketman’s Launch Pad. Thanks Rick, and the entry I did about Skin Tight parties really did some great stuff. I just thing it’s awesome in one month I doubled my total hits. Thanks guys. I have one link that is in Spanish and I’m not quiete sure it’s a good post, so if anyone speaks Spanish let me know, I want to know what is being said about me, babblefish didn’t tell me much.

And before I get into the entry, be warned the postings over the next two weeks may not be as frequent, school work and the birthday are coming up. And for those who know me, the birthday is an event, it’s a week long celebration, that is being cut back this year, grrr, due to funding problems, yeah that’s it. But next year will be back in full force.

Ok, since I have somewhat of a following, I wanted to share some of my favorite blogs I read regularly.


Joe.My.God - I have to say this is one of the first blogs I ever came across. And I love the way Joe writes, he’s witty, funny and totally sounds like the kind of guy I could go grab a beer/drink with and just talk for hours. He lived in Tampa and reminds me so much of my friend T, (of M&T) and emailed Joe once and asked was there something in the water about Tampa and long, involved, funny stories. They have similar stories, I wonder if they ever met…hmmmmmmm. He lives in NYC now and has just as many stories, One day I will be up on his level, I hope! Check him out I think he is the god of blogging.

Rocketman’s Launching Pad - Formerly Rocketman’s Ramblings, I think, a guy in Chicago in the Chorus up there and I think he reminds me a lot of me in ways. He seems like such a great guy, from the blog postings I’ve read. Check him out as well plus he gave me a link from his site. Which I didn’t know he did! Till I check Technorati one day. Thanks Rick, and he just went on a date so go read all about it, he sounds sweet as hell.

Kinda Like Porn, No Real Plot - Billy is the first blogger I talked too. He’s a great guy and has some really funny stuff on his site. You can read about him and is partner on his site. He’s a great guy so go over and check him out.

A Muscle Boy in training - http://www.laakapu.org/ - this is a blog with good eye candy. For the life of me I can’t remember his name but he’s a teacher in Hawaii and the title says it all.

Scott-o-rama - Scott has a great blog for more eye candy and It’s fun to read about him and his bf, buckaroo. He lives in AZ and I think is another great writer. He is one of the people in the blog world I wish I could grab a beer with and talk, just think he’d make a great friend.

Large Tony - And yes Tony is large, and I ain’t talkin’ as in weight, I’m talking something else, you know what I mean. I think I have some things in common with Tony. I think me and him have very similar personality aspects. But he posts about once a week but they are pretty good posts.

Best Gay Blogs - This is a great site to find other blogs. I hopefully will be reviewed on it soon, I know they are busy and have a lot of blogs waiting to be reviewed. But I’m happy they linked me from the site, if they never review me then that’s ok, but I have a link on a very high traffic site. But check it out almost daily for new blogs and and reviews.

Towleroad - This is a site devoted to sports, and hot pics from sports. Are we noticing a theme here? LOL Yeah I like blogs with hot pics on it. But not all on this list are. But some are great writers.

Mr. Brian’s Opinions - I like Brian’s blog because I was told by Billy that me and him did underwear posts the same week. LOL Again another small world. I read him and he’s written a book, so it’s pretty cool to read his blog.

Sodomy Creek - An Atlanta guy, he is dating with Monotonous. I think it’s cool to read what other guys in ATL are writing about and what’s going on.

Monotonous - Again he is dating Sodomy Creek, for the life of me I can’t remember names, I know know bad Tim, but he just got an iBook as well so It’s great when you read about people switching to Mac

Boys Briefs - Chris, see I do know some names, is another Atlanta guy and writes about everything. He just started dating a guy and I think likes undies as well. He had a cool Halloween costume, and just got an inteterview on Best Gay Blogs. I thought at first he was a circuit boy but he’s really impressed me with his blog.

So these are what I’m reading, I know this week I’ve been slack but it’s been a busy school week. I actually had a date, with Thomas: The Mo, yes that’s what he asked to be called, and I already told him I’d be writing about him in the blog. So I hopefully will have it posted tomorrow. But no promises.

Hot Guy of the Week #7

Ok, this image his HOT to me, A swimmer in jammers holding a football. I love it when the combine two things!



This is one reason I like football and specifically Texas A&M, I love thier baseball team but the main reason I like thier football team is thier pants are see through. As you can see in this series of pics. I had to post all of them, they were just too good not too!



hmmmmmmm



yummmmmm



Need help; stretching???

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

Breaking up…. What’s the best way to get on after it’s happened.

I have two really good friends who just broke. And I must say I was not surprised, I was more surprised it took so long. But I won’t go into details about it, just not fair to either of them and it’s so far been a civil break up for someone who’s been together for over 3 years. Which is a good thing. But it got me thinking. This situation is very much like the one I had with my ex. What do you do when one partner is over the whole relationship and the other will do anything to save it?

I’ve been on both ends of this but the longest relationship I had was over 2 years, and I was the one who wanted to save it. Looking back now, you see things so clearly, hindsight is 20/20. What happened was for the best, but when I was in the situation it was not. Its my feeling that if you’re the party who is over the relationship and you have tired to fix what was wrong and it can’t be fixed or the other person is unwilling to fix it, ti’s time to end it and move on. A lot of people say, “well what about the other partner? Their feelings are going to get hurt” Yeah that’s very true, and it’s better to do it sooner then later. I think if you do it later, and you’re the one over the whole situation then you will only get worse as time goes by and resent your partner for having to stay there. It’s never easy ending a relationship (for most of us) that has gone on for many years but sometimes it’s for the best.

As for the one who wants to save the relationship. I made my ex promise me at the beginning if there were problems let me know, or if he ever wanted out tell me right then and not leave me hanging on. Well this didn’t’ happen. About a year before we broke up, it was my birthday party and he didn’t want to come and was over it, looking back now, this was the beginning of the end. He came to the party because my grandmother died that day and he was there for moral support. But things went down hill from there. We constantly fought, and life just became crappy. Then we had a talk and determined we should separate for a while. This really took me by surprise but you can’t make someone love you and if things progress so far with out anything being said or done to fix them, sometimes it’s just too late to change it. That’s what happened to me and my ex. He let things build up so much and kept things in so long that when they did come out he spend all his emotional energy already and to him it wasn’t worth saving. And I understand that, I hated him for many months but I realize that our relationship never had good communication and we never really talked. I don’t think we were good friends even. It was all about sex at times. Then after about a month or more of separation, he decided to end it and tell me on July 4th, I know quite ironic in a way. But before that I realized that things sucked between us and things would not change and I was actually thinking about doing the breaking up. But didn’t, now in his defense, he did it on the phone, which was not the way he wanted to do it, but you know when someone tells you they want to talk and you just instinctively know that it’s bad, that’s what it was that night. We have since made up and talk occasionally but I wouldn’t consider us friends, we are just too different I think. Do I still love him, no, I don’t, and I really don’t remember why I did, I know that’s sad to say but that relationship taught me a lot and I’m very glad I had it. The next one will be much better.

After we broke up I was convinced we would be together again, and we were meant for each other. Well I was one step away from a stalker I tell ya, but that never happened. For the first month or so I was devastated, Right when it happened, I was like I can’t date again, I don’t know what’s it’s like, it sucks dating, and all that. But it’s one of the best things that happened to me. Yeah in the beginning it sucked but every day it got better, and all things heal in time. Yeah I gave up dating for a while to find myself and I think I have, I think anyone who dates me now will have a much better friend and partner because of it. I have found out what’s important and what’s not. So break up’s are not a bad thing at all. Even though they seem your world is falling apart. I think it was really hard on me because I really had no friends at the time of the break up. If you have no friend you can’t possibly make it sane through it, there were times I thought I was going crazy, you need a friend to say, we need to get you out of the house and get your mind off things. Which I’m trying to do to my friends, both of them, which is something different, you’re friends to both but you’re in the middle. I just have to pay attention to what you say and keep word to both parties.

Just something that goes along with being terminally single!

Abs Required.... By Manhunt

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200 in One Day!

Whooo howooo, can you believe it I had 200 visitors in one day. I think over the past week and a half I have almost doubled my readership for the past year. I want to thank Droo for posting a link in his yahoo groups. Thanks for reading guys and check back often. This last week and a half has been sucking but hey can’t let it get me down. But I’m totally psyched about the increase in traffic (see graph below).





I have my site posted on a few more larger sites and I hope to get more readers soon. Now I have to come up with topics to write about and keep it fresh and new. This past week I wish I had a guest blogger to write, but I didn’t. maybe soon. Stay tuned and tell your friends!

Man that's SKINTIGHT!

Guys at SkinTight hanging out

Ok, I left you hanging yesterday, and here it is. SkinTight parties are the ones in NYC where guys get together at a bar and wear their spandex (biking, superhero, wrestling singlets, leather, latex and Under Armour, and much, much more). They can dance and drink and make a night of it. I think it's kind of like a celebration of your fetish. I don't know who thought up the idea but a guy named Droo, (yes I spelled it right), has become the spandex prince of NYC. He is the organizer and host from what I can tell of the parties.


More Guys at SkinTight hanging out, I love the guy in the speedo!

I have seen Droos pics online for a while and chatted with him on AIM. He seems like a great guy. He's big time into gear so you know he scores points with me! The parties have been at some other bars and have moved to the current one. At this one, it's preferred if you wear some type of skin tight clothing, but it's not necessary to get into the event. There is an area for people to change so they don't have to walk the streets of NYC dressed as a college wrestler, or as Spiderman. You can wear anything from an Under Armour shirt with jeans, or a latex catsuit. Mostly it's some type of lycra gear. Which I think is cool, because from what I understand about the last parties, they were in an open bar, and I know if I were going I'd stay home, to have the regular queens be bitchy about the gear and really tear into people (Make fun of them)* I'm of the school, if you're having fun and not hurting anyone, there's no reason for someone to make fun of them. That's just me though, & although I don't always live up to it, you never intentionally hurt someones feelings. I know there are tons of fetishes out there, some of which I don't quite understand, but as long as you're consenting adults, knock yourself out. Ok, off the soap box and back to reality.


Not sure what the guy on the left is wearing, either a skin suit or looks like a BMX suit, either way it's HOT

If I remember correctly the parties started as HardComixxx, with kind of superhero theme. Guys would dress up in superhero costumes, (spandex and the like), and get together. Now that is very hot! As a kid, who didn't want to strip Aquaman or Robin and have their way with them? As you notice they always drew the guys with big bulges. I guess the gay guys in the comic book world drew the men they way they wanted, and the str8 guys in the comic book world drew women with large breasts. Like most guys though I don't have a superhero costume and couldn't wear one that often. So I think the move to all things spandex really gets more guys involved. Rather then spending big money, (some of the Superman costumes I've seen have been over $400, & Droo told me about Spiderman suits upwards of $1,500.00!), you can wear something you already own and just go hang out.


Gear guy supreme Droo, in front in the red/black skinsuit

As you can see by some of the pics there are some guys who like to wear superhero costumes, and there are others who just wear spandex. I think it's a cool mix. You see guys hanging out, dancing and drinking beer. Now that's my kind of night. And btw, Droo said it was cool to post the pics. I wanted to make sure before I did. I think it's really cool that guys in NYC are really embracing their fetish. There have been guys who have come all the way from Greece, Europe, China, Australia, and from points all over the USA. I really want to go up and go to one. As you can see by the pics the guys aren't all super muscle studs, most are just average guys and to me that's perfect. I think the parties are awesome.


A hot super hero and latex/rubber suit on the other hot guy

You can keep up to date with party information at the following internet addresses:

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/SkinTightNYC/

http://hometown.aol.com/skintight212718/

Something Fun……

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Hot Guy of the Week #6

This guy is very cute to me. Just a guy next door type that I love! What a cute face!



OK had to make a change, due to the fact the pic wouldn't load right. This is a hottie in the pool. It makes me want to work out and get guns like that!

Enjoy more to come later


DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

Life Goes On.........

Ok, I planned to do something special for my one year anniversary of the blog but this week has really been one from hell. I found out Monday, quite unexpectedly too, that the family business closed. So that means that I’m out of a job, well as soon as we get everything wrapped up.

It’s kind of been a roller coaster of emotions. I never liked working for the family but, it was something that I wanted to succeed due to my parents. They put a lot of money in the business and that’s gone now. So I wanted to write a few things but just haven’t felt like it.

So now the task begins to find a job. I have one slight problem that will make it hard for me to find a job till December. I have a class two days a week, from 11 AM till 12:30 PM. I hope I can find a job in marketing. If anyone knows anything please let me know!

Happy One year Anniversary

Hey guys,
My one year blog anniversary was Monday, I wanted to do a great blog post but I found out Monday our family business is or was closed and kinda shot my day all to hell and i forgot bout my anniversary till now. YEAH One year, I plan on writing a few things but life kinda sucks right now but I will write tonight, It maybe a twofer day or threefer day. Who can say. Thanks for reading
Tim

Hot guy Update

Hey guys, been trying to update the Hot guy of the week, but Blogger is having issues uploading pics. Will keep trying through out the day! Have a great day and watch for hot beef here soon!

Hot Guy of the Week #5

Hmm, I love a guy in a baseball cap. This week it's' boys in baseball caps.



Nothing better then a beefy boy in a baseball cap!

Enjoy guys.

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

When a post isn't a post

Hey there, I know this week I’ve been very bad in posting. I try to go every few days and post. But this week I’ve done not much. I apologize, I have had a lot of school work and am working on a few good posts. Three new ones and I’m in no mood to write. I had to be up late last night, for the third night in a row, and do school stuff, run all over town for work and I’m just beat. I’m in no mood to write. I tired to write one easy one but it’s sucks. I also had a major test to day and I felt like we I was bitch slapped. Just a very hard test. I promise to write more this weekend and get some stuff together. Hang in there with me.

Underwear is Everywhere!

Ok, I’m going to talk about something fun. That is my fetish for Undies! Lately I have noticed that there sure seems to be a lot of underwear ads and pics of guys in undies everywhere. The most recent is the ad for Gay.com



This ad really took me by surprise. The undies around the ankles are pretty hot to me. “More then meets the eye.” I’m not sure this tag line really goes with the pic but hell, I don’t mind. But hey it gets me to stop and look. I wont’ go into advertising principles I’ve learned but, I’ll just enjoy the hot ad!

Another area that has taken me by surprise was Speedo is now making undies.



I couldn’t believe it, and they look pretty cool too. The only problem is the price, again back to the 20 bucks for a brief discussion I’ve had before. But price aside, the undies are cool as sh*t. I looked them over at the Speedo site and how can you go wrong with undies being modeled by Michael Phelps. I’m sorry I think he’s a total stud. Yeah he’s younger then I like them but there is something about him that drives me crazy. HMMMM, Now if they could just get him to model the undies on the site, I’d love it. The ads I have seen are online and show Michael in various sexy looks. Like the one above. WOWSA! Boy is he hot.



Another great ad is from C-IN2, from the guy who brought us 2(x)ist. The kick off ad showed two guys in C-IN2 undies. pants around thier ankles, getting arrested by two hot cops (see pic above). Now, I wouldn’t mind getting arrested by them, they are pretty hot cops. This ad I will say just kinda took me by surprise. Usually for most underwear ads they are just guys standing around in undies by themselves, or more then one but nothing much happening. This ad is pretty cool. I have yet to get an of the C-IN2 undies, but I think they are great looking and 2(x)ist was, hope to get some very soon.



I have noticed that there are fewer and fewer boxers these days. Which to me is a good thing. I hate boxers to wear and they aren’t the least bit sexy. I have noticed a lot more briefs and some bikinis. Some of the new brands that I see a lot of lately are Go softwear, Aussiebum, Baskit, CK, 2xist to name a few. They are all moving towards microfibre and making more form fitting undies. This is a very good thing. The pic I created from pics from the internet show this. A lot of guys are getting better undies. Not the typical tighty whities and boxers. They are getting more microfibre, colors and styles. As many of you know I hate boxer briefs with a passion, they are too loose and provide no support and bunch up. Unless they are like the bike shorts one or made out of microfibre. I love those. I think men’s undies is going high tech. We are getting more comfort and style then ever before. But one thing about the new boxer briefs or trunks as they call them is that they are very designed to be very eye catching and fun. Look at the 2(x)ist ones that are black and white. Those are pretty cool. Also CK is doing some really great stuff with undies. I’ve never been a fan of CK, except for the white briefs, but lately they are getting better at undies, I have a few pairs and they fit incredible. They have started to use many colors and different styles, which is great. Even Jockey is doing some really cool new undies. I think everything is moving towards form fitting comfort and that is great! Take a look at some of the pics from the box covers and off the company web sites



I think there is a turn in underwear makers for men. Underwear is definitely changing. Which is a good thing. The 90s and the first part of 2000s were so boring for underwear. All we had was white, black and grey. How boring is that. If you’re old enough to remember the 80s, then you remember men’s undies were fun. We had colors and patterns and they were great. This was the best time to be wearing bikinis; there were so many brands and styles. Which unfortunately went away by the early 90s. But there seems to be a come back and more colors are coming back. I should have a contest “Show me your sexiest Undies” and win some. HMMMM, but I don’t think I have enough readers to do that yet and I know a lot of you guys wouldn’t send in pics cause you’re my friends and I know you that well!

Has anyone else noticed this about undies lately? Or am I just imagining things? Would love to have some of you post comments and tell me what you think, even if you don’t have a thing for undies, I’m an equal opportunity comment whore, opps, requester!

Have a great day guys.

Hot Guy of the Week #4

I love these pics that guys take of themselves in the mirror. There should be a site of pics like this. I also have a thing for guys in baseball caps!


Ok, another fav of mine is a big beefy daddy type like this one! He is yummy and what more can you say.

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

Seven Things

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. Go to Australia and Bondi Beach (hot men in Speedos, my kind of heaven)
2. Buy a House
3. Get a Career (Yeah, I need one desperately)
4. Go to Yosemite Park
5. Fall in love again (sometimes you gotta wonder)
6. Try Standup Comedy
7. Get a body that I can be proud of!

7 things I can do:
1. Change a Tire (I can be so butch)
2. Figure out market share and industry growth in marketing
3. Problem solve
4. Write pretty well, been told I have a unique style of writing
5. Tell a joke, so many can’t
6. Navigate anywhere in ATL and have a good sense of direction
7. Program my VCR

7 things I cannot do:
1. Sing, I’m worse then William Hung
2. Tie a tie, it’s true, I have someone tie it and keep it tied LOL sad huh
3. Hit a softball out of the park
4. Spell, dyslexia has a way of keeping you from doing it
5. Write a resume to save my life
6. Work a calculus problem (the only class I ever dropped)
7. Go on a third date (LOL, one or two but thirds are rare)

7 things that attract me to the SAME sex:
1. Humor
2. Eyes
3. Laid back personality
4. Great smile
5. A good butt, yeah I’m a butt man
6. Intelligence
7. Good conversationalist


7 things that I say most often:
1. Cool
2. Sweet
3. Whatever
4. FIX IT FIX IT FIX IT! (Said real fast, my new one)
5. It’s all-good
6. Don’tcha (insert any of the Pussy Cat Dolls song after that)
7. Good deal


7 celebrity crushes:
1. Jake Gyllenhaal

2. Ryan Reynolds

3. Javy Lopez

4. Cael Sanderson (Olympic wrestler)

5. Michael Phelps

6. George Eads (CSI)

7. Roger Clemens (yeah I like a lot of different types)



7 people I want to do this:

• I need more blog buddies!

Four More Years!

NOT, I think the whole 4 years, as I’ll call it, was good for me. But would I want to do another 4 years, HELL NO! You know I have made a lot of changes and have really focused on myself and getting my life in order. I will be the first to admit that I have really been lost at sea and really had not clue what to do with my life. I’ve always been my worst enemy. But this past year, things have turned the corner. You know I realized who stupid I was being and how I took things way to hard. The absence of sex, I think made me get out and sort out my problems. I used sex as an escape from my problems, and I was in the school of thought that if I ignore the problem it will go away. Which it never solves the problem it just gets worse.

The whole experience last week was kind of an awakening. I realized, A, how much fun it is and sex should be fun. And B. I have control over myself and what happens. To part A, you know I was a slut, I admit it and used to sleep around a lot. And at times it was a chore at times. To me doing the topping or the big deed to me seemed like a chore that I was supposed to do. I realized in the last few years that any time I have topped and really enjoyed it was when I knew the guy, dated, or was boy friends with the guy. The times I really didn’t get into it was, a trick or one nightstand. Last Friday was just awesome, and I really like blue eyes, and he wasn’t pushy about it. So I said to myself why not let’s do it. Secondly, I have control on what happens. For the longest time, I used to do what was expected of me or what I thought would make people happy. God, and that’s a never ending cycle, I mean you’re always trying to make people happy and you go out of your way, and the only one not happy is me. I had to realize to say no. Which is hard to do but once you do it, it starts to come natural. The first time I said NO, I was scared to death the person would say “To hell with you” but they didn’t, they were like OK, that’s cool. I was like WOW this works.

I think what’s really changed this year is I have developed some self confidence and self esteem. I think this is due largely to this blog and J2. It’s the whole, you have to be a friend to get a friend. This is never so true. I have been told over and over again that I was negative, and down and depressing. I know this was true too. I kept everything to myself and knew I could count on me, and that was the only person I could. Well I guess I finally reached the breaking point and I got the blog and J2 and a few other friends and I’m just now tell it all. I have been told that, especially, when it comes to dating, that I tell too much too soon, but you know I’d rather tell it now then have it come back later and haunt me.

Just a quick update on the 4 years, I’m going to try to write something fun later this week!

The Four Years

Ok, this has been the weekend on big changes. For those of you who know me, know that its been four years, Aug 2001 since I last did the big deed, if you don’t know it’s topping. Well as of last night the four years ended. Before I get into what happened last night let me explain the reason for the four years.

The last time I topped was Aug 2001, as I said and it was the time of an HIV test and they always freak me out, no matter how safe I always go “What if?” And the two weeks to get the results, I kept going, what about this, what about that, and I had played with someone who was HIV positive and didn’t tell me, so that was in the back on my mind. A friend back then that HIV is much harder to get then it was, and he knew what I did and how safe I was and that I had not much to worry about. Well the results came back negative and I realized it was time to make changes.

Up until that time, I was pretty much a slut. Yeah I admit it, something’s in your past you’re not proud of but you know it happened and it’s a part of what made me what I am today. I think you should never run from your past, you should embrace it and learn from it. I have not clue how many people I’ve been with or really cared. I used sex to fill a void in my life. Before I go any father, I want to say this, I’m not saying if you enjoy one nighters or sex, then you’re less of a person, hey as long as you and your partner you’re with know it’s just a one time deal and you’re safe go have fun. I just realized it was not for me. And I would be a hypocrite. I’m only a hypocrite on one thing and I’ll discuss that later. I had been pretty much a loner, and really the only really close intimate contact was tricking and one nighters. I had really low self-confidence and was really shy. I think as gay men we mistake sex for intimacy at times. Not always but I know I did back then. You think if you get naked and go at it then you’re intimate with someone, well you’re not. But it’s that close physical contact that we all crave and you get it for a few hours and then, at least for me it left me lonelier and emptier then before. To hear someone say you’re so hot, you’re incredible to name a few, is great. But it’s only in one aspect. It’s not the person you are but what you’re doing in bed. It was a self-destructing cycle. You have the contact then you regret it and you do it again. I think for me I needed to realize there was more to me then a certain part of my anatomy. Which, I’m guilty of using in wrong ways, and if you want to know more email me, but it’s similar to =Cuteyoboy’s blog entry “Details” (was trying to do a link, but blogger for Mac ain't takign my html. Just go to the side, click on Cuteyoboys link and read the entry). It’s the be all end all of the gay world, and trust me boys it ain’t all what it’s cracked up to be. I plan a whole entry on that, but going to do a little research first, oh get your mind out of the gutter!

So, after the test I just realized how self destructing the cycle was, and how it was time to make changes and get out from under the depression I was in. So I said no more, and that day I did it. I realized something, that most of the times when I topped, it was a chore, for a lack of better word. It really didn’t do anything for me; I just did it because it was what was expected. I looked back on the times when it felt the best, I realized it was when I was with my Ex, a guy I went on a date on, or a FB/Friend with benefit that I hung out with and also had fun with. I realized what these all had in common. These were all people that I had a connection with and liked. So I told myself you can do anything but topping, until I date. Well, as faithful readers know, LOL I’ll be waiting till we put a man on Mars before that will happen. So, I really haven’t done much over the last few year, I have really slowed down and you know I kind of like it. There is less stress and I’m a lot happier knowing I’m not getting used for something or using someone else. I also came up with the “If I don’t like you I won’ sleep with you” concept. Which has made a big difference for me. It makes the activities a lot more fun and I have virtually cut out all one nighters. I usually get with the guy several times. But one year passed, then two and I was like OMG I’m actually doing this, then three, and finally four. All my friends can’t believe that it has lasted this long.

I will say that in the last few months I have really had the urge to top. The last time I had it so strong, I took pictures of a guy I play with on occasion. And as things progressed, I really wanted to top him, and would have. But he was a top too so nothing happened. So I have been like a buck in a rut, wanting to really go at it. But and this maybe something some friends may not know but I have been looking to have a friend with benefit. Someone to hang out with go to movies and then have fun. Now I didn’t’ want one where every time we get together we have to get naked. But occasionally would be great. So I had been on the hunt and I ran across one guy who I though was really sexy. We had chatted off and on for a while. And we finally decided to meet. I found out that he has had a partner of 16 years and they play separate, and for purposes of the blog, I’ll call him blue eyes, because he has great blue eyes and HMMM what a kisser. Ok now here is where the hypocrite comes in on me. I won’t share my man but I’ll share someone else’s. I know, BAD TIM, but hey if they are open and we hit it off why not? I don’t want an open relationship, maybe one day I will because I never say never. I’ve eaten my words too many times. But I went over to Blue Eyes house, stopped and got some beer and we hung out and talked for a while. It was pretty cool we have a lot in common and it was really great. We were in the kitchen talking and we kissed, and WOW can he kiss. We went to the bedroom and just started to make out and things progressed, you know how they do. Well, here’s why he got it when so many others haven’t. He never pressured me into doing it. He said it would feel nice but he didn’t get pushy or demanding. And I was thinking, you know it’s been 4 years and is this someone who, when I look back I will mind ending it? As I thought, I said no, because I felt a real connection and we have made plans to do things and he’s a nice guy. The only thing I wish we could have done is spending the night together but I’m very happy with the experience. It was AWESOME and Blue Eyes, and me laughed about our problems with my ankle, his knee and what hell it is getting old. Today I have been achy. I thought I was coming down with something but I realized in the act of, for a lack of better term, making love, my muscles are sore LOL, it’s so funny, when I was younger I was the energizer bunny and could go four hours and not be sore. LOL it’s hell getting older. But I’m really glad I went over and I have absolutely no regrets today and hopefully will get with him often.

When I left I called J2 last night right after I got out, and he was with his man and really surprised he answered his phone. He thought I was kidding first, but I was not, and he was happy for me. I told him, “ You know if I never see him again I had fun and really enjoyed it.” But I know I’ll see him again and hopefully often. I also called my SC Man, who has a friend with the same name as Blue Eyes, and he thought I had slept with his friend (The friend lives here in Atlanta area) and his partner was out of town. SC Man and his partner thought, “OMG what is he doing his partner is out of town!” LOL I got a big laugh when they thought it was someone else. But I set them straight and it’s good. I hopefully will go over there and meet them soon.

This whole experience has taught me that I can hold on to what I believe, and not fall back into old destructive behaviors. I have been worried it’s like Pandora box and that if I top someone I’ll go right back to tricking and such, I know, kinda stupid sounding. But you always go back to what you know. And this taught me that I’m not going to do what I did and that sex isn’t a bad thing. I was getting to the point where topping was bad and it’s not, as long as it’s done for the right reason. I realized today that I have really grown up and have started to make a life for me that I am proud of. I have much needed to make these changes and I think things will be good. Just curious if anyone else out there went through this? I just can’t believe that I posted so much and so personal. Thanks for reading!

Hot Guy of the Week #3

Hmm a hot bodybuilder, one of my favs. I wish you could see the full pic of his posing trunks!



A hot redneck beefy boy. yeah can you telI like many different types? Nothing like a guy in a truck!

Disclaimer: I make no assumptions on the sexual orientation of guys in the hot guy of the week. There are guys I find that are hot!

The Week Of Unexpected Turns. – Kathy Griffin Dream, Softball, Going Out And The Family Business.

Brief announcemnt: the lunch today is Meatloaf and Mashed potatoes, oppss wrong announcment, the hot guys of the week will be posted later, I fogot to do that this AM, they are picked out and just need to be uploaded!

I was going to write this earlier in the week but this has been a bad week and I try not to write when I’m really upset or depressed. And when I write when I’m depressed I just don’t write well. It’s one of those poor pitiful me. Which I’m trying not to do. So here we go….

Saturday night I had a dream and it involved Kathy Griffin. Who is my favorite comedian right now. I dreamed that I was one of her “main gays” and I was at her house, which I think is awesome, that house is incredible. But, as it has been reported, she filed for divorce from her husband Matt, and me and one or two others. Although I don’t know who they were, well we were hanging out and just talking then all of a sudden the phone rings and we’re told something happened to Kathy and she died while on the road. No, I don’t know where this dream came from and I think it’s totally whacked! It’s one of those you wake up from and go “What the f*ck?”, the dream ended when we were running around wondering what to do about it. I have no clue where this came from and why I had it, if Kathy reads this, LOL yeah she’s going to take the time to read this, I think you’re one of the best and brightest comedians and you need another DVD! Allegedly is AWESOME! Ok, yeah I have to give her a plug since I dreamed she died. BTW she also has a pod cast on Bravo’s web site, that give some in side info on what’s happened on the shows. Go download and enjoy!

The weekend was going good, I had a group meeting for school and then hung out with my friends J and B, and had a good day and I came home early because the fall season of softball started. Well, I guess I must have been excited because I left an hour early. I got to the field and I am on the green team and I think we have a really great team. I had so much fun and I actually played! Can you believe it? I played J’s team first. I batted left handed for the fist time; I batted about the same as right, pretty much grounders and always out at first. One other area that caused a problem is my favorite bat, is also J’s favorite bat, so we had to trade back and forth. So this went on and we were pretty evenly matched. But I don’t know who told someone to hit the ball to me, since I am in right field, yeah this is the “you can’t play softball so we’re going to put you in the middle of no where” position. I think J told them to hit the ball to me. Well it was a pop fly and I ran to get it and I caught it! That’s right I got an out. I don’t know who was more surprised, my team or me. I was so happy. I don’t think J believed that I caught it! But I noticed, that J’s entire team was using the bat, well I decided to put a hex on the bat and as I said use the “power of the chicken foot,” give it some voodoo curse. It must have worked because they were ahead and we tied in the 5th inning, before time ran out, and they scored no runs on their last bat. So the voodoo must have worked. The second game was good we lost; I think we were all tired but we had fun, this season is great, I’m really going to enjoy the 5 weeks we’ll play. And J kept the bat, which his fine, cause it’s going to be cursed, I have another bat I like and I ordered a new bat today, that is much better and we’ll see how the green bat does, It will be used sparingly!

Then after softball we went to Woofs and I had a great time. The coach of our team coaches, Woofs D level team and he’s a nice guy. I went and had fun. I wasn’t that shy, I had moments but I had a great time and really enjoyed it. I met a really cute guy too, Which I didn’t find out his name till I left and he told me how funny my comments were and gave me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek. I love J, but he never introduces anyone. You just want to smack him at times! But when I talked to the cutie, won’t give him a nick name yet, he said he would go to poker the next night so I was like, “hey this could be the Operation: Date Night, date. But he was a no show. So we’ll just have to wait and see when he is back at Woofs.

So this was a good weekend and I thought the week would get better, but this was soon to change. Like a black cloud looming in the horizon. I had a case for one of my classes due and my group partner and me wrote it up and well, we were told our case sucked, well not in those words but I’m paraphrasing. “That was the worst case I’ve ever heard” was the direct quote. OK, granted it wasn’t’ the best but he wanted power point and this whole long thing, that we were like “WHAT?” it was a case on GE in Hungary, and what he said it was about, was how to keep investment in China from expanding, which I was like, are we reading the same book? So I went to Woofs and had a few drinks and came home.

This was only to be matched by problems at work. Which is family. I have some words of advice, NEVER work with family. It sucks, and I’m not talking as in it sucks a little, it sucks a lot. Now I know I haven’t had the best work experience, and have not put out my effort, but over the last year I have changed a lot and really have a different work ethic, but all the family can see is what was, and how many times a week can you be told you’re stupid before you just really don’t give a damn? That’s where I am, they don’t say I’m stupid but they imply it. If I didn’t have my Tues/Thrus class I’d be working anywhere but there. I have a few events to go to this week about how to find a job in marketing from the Atlanta AMA (American Marketing Association). So this is good timing. I don’t want to go into the whole family/work thing, I’d type more then you’d read. There are a lot of things that I don’t want to go into right now. Some of it probably when I move out, I will see differently, but right now it’s dysfunctional and driving me crazy.

But, I hope this makes sense and you can follow it. I had a friend send me who well I have been doing writing in the blog, and how better I’ve become doing it. Which I’m not sure this entry is one of my best and I hope it makes sense. I’m tired and need sleep but I wanted to write this and post this, I’ll prob have to clarify what I wrote later. I hope you have a great day and I’ll keep you posted on what’s going on.

Life's Lessons Learned

This for me is somewhat of a usual post. As many of you who have read the blog, which It think there are maybe two people outside of my friends, actually read this. I’m going to be serious for a change. And really open up. So here goes, but I’ll throw my sense of humor in too.

The last year has really been a growing experience for me. I’ve always lacked self-esteem and really have doubted everything I do. I haven’t held a job and stuff like that because I believed that I couldn’t do it or wasn’t worthy of it. I know stupid, but when you’re told for years and years you’re stupid and such, then you believe it after a while. This is due to my dyslexia. No one in school knew about it or diagnosed it or anything. So for the most of my life I’ve gone through life thinking I was stupid and couldn’t do things.

Well, that began to change when I started back to school in 1999. I almost dropped out my first semester back, I didn’t do well in either class, accounting or economics and just thought I didn’t have what it take to be back in school. I swear I almost cried home after getting my first tests back. But after some serious thought I applied myself, and other then that year I have made all A’s and B’s. I mean since I’ve been back I’ve had a 3.6 or something like that, but mixed in with my other grades I’m a 2.87 now. I took all the business classes and have learned a lot.

I used to work at a catering company delivering and then got a job through a friend at a telecommunications consulting group, which something told me not to take the job, but I did and I worked there for six months. Got laid off, and I kinda felt sorry for myself but I wasn’t devastated. So, after I finished school for the semester I came to work for my family, but as most of you know that’s driving me crazy but it taught me one thing. I know what I’m doing in business. I couldn’t believe how much of my schooling came in handy and how I knew what I was doing. This really started things coming together for me. I was like, OMG I know what I’m doing. So this experience working with family is a good and a bad one.

Another turning point in my life this year is meeting J2. This is prob the most important person in my life right now. He is the only person that I have ever really opened up too. I can tell him anything and it’s all good. It’s very refreshing to have someone like that in my life. And I’m trying to change my self and get my life on track and be the person I know I can be. I think the turning point in our relationship was when the day I got him upset about not spending anytime. Things just sort of fell into place and that day I realized a lot. We talked the following Sunday night and I just feel like I know him for so much longer then I actually have.

PS I had a great weekend and a lot happened, I will update a lot more this week. So stay tuned, just havne't had time to write, but plan to do some major writing this week!

Hot guy of the Week #2

Ok, this guy is hot, because it think he's' wearing a thong. HMM and if you've been a faithful reader of my blog you know I love dudes in thongs. Plus he's very cute, guy next door type. The kind that drive me wild.


Now this is a beefy boy. I love beefy boys too, HMMM nothing like some good All American Grade A Beef.

Hope you enjoy the guys.
Disclaimer - I make no claims to the sexual orientation of guys here, in the hot guys, they are pics I get off the net that I think are hot.

The Terrible Rotten No Good Week

This week started off strange. You know when you just get a feeling that things aren’t right but you can’t put your finger on it. Well this was my week for that. I had my own problems as well.

The week started off as any other week. I had troubles at work and you know I realized I do not want to work in the family business for the rest of my life and I want to move out and in with some friends by January. So this has been a fun week, but wait it gets better!

I talked to a guy I know online, a good guy, we’ve known each other off and on for about 5 years or so. He told me his best friend committed suicide a few weeks back. He was doing a lot better then I would, if mine would have done that. He talked to me and I just listened, he’s a great guy and you know you just wanted to hug him. I won’t go into detail about what he said but this really wasn’t good. I need to cal him today and see how he’s doing. I think I’m one of the first people he talked too about it. You gotta be there for people, and I think it does a world of good knowing someone is there even if you can’t do much to help, a hug goes a long way.

That was one, well they say it happens in three, and well here goes number two. I went to a meeting at school last night and I got to the room early and it was locked so I brought out my laptop, and got online to chat and kill time. One other friend who I’ve known for about 7 years told me he got diagnosed with cancer yesterday. I asked him, before I found out, “How are you” and he said “I’ve been better” and that’s not a usual response. So I asked what was wrong and he told me, he doesn’t know much about it but they have a lot more tests to do and hopefully they caught it early and he’ll be ok. He lives near me and I will do what I can for him and his family is here too so that’s good as well.

Lastly, another friend told me they had a big meeting, and two VP’s that work there were asked to resign, and they are doing away with the product line he works on. So he maybe out in the street looking for a job soon. Luckily he just got a lead on a much better job and I hope it works out. This was out of the blue, just sorta like you get hit upside the head with a baseball bat.

What a week. This week totally sucked. I had a feeling from the beginning of the week, something is off. I didn’t really pay it any attention. OH, before I forgot, I almost got hit twice yesterday, once was going up the parking lot ramp, one of those circular ramps, well I was going all the way to the top, only place to park on Tues/Thurs, when I go to class. And this guy pulled right out of one of the floors and swear he was only inches from my fender. Then looked at me like I was crazy. GRRRR and the next is my light turned green, I turned left on a road, and a car was stopped at the right light, and proceeded to do a u-turn right in front of me. I swear, if it were legal I would have run them off the road.

The weekend is here, we’re supposed to start fall league softball this weekend but they said it may rain, like last spring season we didn’t’ get enough rain. Jesh! I think it will be fun, very laid back and I hope I can improve some skills.

I just need to grab a 12 pack and relax! But I think that won’ happen either since I haven’t been paid in a month. Why is it when you need a drink or a few drinks or OK a lot of drinks you never have money to buy them? It’s gotta be some cruel sick joke!

Oh well, I’ll post the hotties of the week later tonight. I have the pics already picked out, just narrowing it down, I think I’ll post two a week rather then one pic. Let me know what you guys think or if you want to be my hottie of the week, send me a pic! I’ll add some info about you and an email link.

Have a great weekend and I’ll write over the weekend.

I met the MAN

Last night I met J2’s man. Ok I know you prob thought I meant I met a man, nope sorry not happening today. His man, is nice and seems like a great guy. He wasn’t feeling very well last night, but he made a point to come out and meet me. Which I give him credit for that, J2 said he wasn’t himself. Which is cool, and they do make a good couple. They will be together for a while. I won’ go into any more detail because J2 will kill me, and he reads this regularly! I could say… nah I better not.

We ate at the Buckhead Diner here, which J2 got mixed up for another diner. It was a little more then I wanted to spend but wasn’t bad. The waiter was a little snotty, and it’s a higher class, for a lack of better term, place then I will usually go to just for a regular meal. Don’t get me wrong I’m not intimidated but I’m laid back and usually like the same kind of place to eat at. One thing about dinner with J2 and me is everywhere we’ve been lately has been with valet parking, and I hate valet parking. Just a waste of money. So we’re going to research before dinner. And J2, the bet is on! LOL (Inside joke)

As for a man for me. Well I haven’t really looked for operation date night. But I need to get on that. Dating to me just sucks. It’s always you can’t be 100% honest on the date, you have to hold things back at the beginning. I’m the kind where I just want to lay the cards on the table and say “hey this is me.” I guess that’s too much for some people to handle. Plus I’m a big smart ass so that comes into play too. But most of the time I’m really shy, believe it or not. A lot of people over the years say they thought I had attitude, but I don’t, I swear! I gotta do something about that.

Ok, I’m going to tell you people one of my dreams. I’ve been debating telling this but I say, heck I’ve told everything else, just about. I want to do stand up comedy. Yes, I think I’d do good at it. They offer a class here in ATL and I’m going to take it. I just need help doing a routine. Friends have said I needed to do it for a while and I think I will very soon!

Well I don’t know what else to say today. Just wanted to do a quick update. Keep those comments a commin’ and keep reading and tell your friends!

Cya, have a great one

The Orange Undies and Shyness

OK, first things first. Over the weekend I was hanging out with my friends and I went without undies, I know an occasional occurrence for me. But this day it was driving me crazy. So we went to Target, and of course I’ve already mentioned they have the undies on clearance, and was going to get some. But what did I see? Well they had the same kind of undies but in bright orange! YES, I couldn’t believe it; about time we got some color in undies besides black, grey and white. So you know I had to get them. They are pretty darn cool. They have redone their undies and I say GO TARGET! Good inexpensive undies.

OK, now to the main reason of the post today. I had another of those eureka moments over the weekend. When I go out and do stuff around people I don’t know, I’m pretty quite and keep to myself. I kept wondering what was up with going out? Why didn’t meet people like J and a few other people? While chatting online with a guy I realized, I just get very shy around people I don’t know. I know which is ironic since I type all this stuff on my blog. But like I’ve said it’s something of anonymity for me, since a lot of people don’t know me and some of my friends have just started to read it too. But this shyness is something I have to deal with and get over. I have to learn to be myself and not worry about what others think. I’m just going to have to get out there and talk and not be so introverted. I am not when I go out with friends, but when I’m out with one friend, and a bunch of new people I am. I guess, I need to find out how to get over this and get out there. I guess a lot of guys think I have attitude, which I don’t. I guess this is something I need to investigate and figure out what a good game plan is. If anyone out there has identified this problem and can give me some advice, email me and let’s talk. I wish I had one of my long posts but I’m just not sure what to say. I think a lot of my problems will be solved when I’m able to move out and start living my life. Good news from this front is I have a place to move out too, just have to get a job that I can afford my bills and necessities of life.

One other thing, I think its time to resurrect my culture night. (See my previous post). I’m starting to meet more people and think it would be something great to do. I’ll let you know when and how culture nights go.

BTW, I've had too many spam comments so I had to turn on the word verification feature. So if you leave a comment you have to type in the funky word that is listed above, I didn't want to do this but I've gotten tired of deleting about 7 comments a week. Hope this doesn't make you stop posting comments. Please post, I'd love to hear from you!

Hot guy of the Week #1

OK here ya go. Nothing says me like hot frat boys in speedos. Or, heck for that matter str8 boys in speedos. This is a hot pic. Yeah I may not date them but I'll post them.




Ok This pic is good too. I like the beefy boy on the right better but hey. A hot guy is a hot guy.

In the weeks to come I'll post a variety of guys. Some twink, some beefy, some avg guys. Keep coming back for more

Thanks guys

Hot guy of the week!

OK i know I said I would post it starting Friday, well I feel down on the job. I had school stuff to do and thre major papers to do. Tomorrow I'll post the guy tomorrow! hope you enjoy this feature! I need to get more traffic. LOL

Changes and Friends

As many of you know who are reading this blog, in the last month, there has been a bigger change in the blog and it has gotten more personal. Which I think is a good thing. I know why I do a lot of things I do, and I’m working on changing them. Which is not easy, nor is it an over night change. Right now I have very few friends to hang out with. Mostly it’s my own fault for doing it and I’ve let people go out of my life that would have been incredible friends. For that I will regret, but I can’t dwell on that fact and say, if only. That time has passed, and it’s time to move forward and get more friends and live my best life I can now and be a better person.

One thing about me and friends is I want new friends now! But the process of making friends is not one that happens instantaneously. It takes time and trust and you grow with the person. I guess that’s part of my frustration I’ve written before with J2, he’s one of my few friends and I want to see him and do things but with his schedule and new man it’s not possible. I still get hung up about it but it’s because I don’t have many other people to hang out with.

The main reason for this is School. This has become the foremost priority in my life. I have been going forever and I hopefully graduate in May of 2006. I’ve had group projects, papers and tests to do and frankly it’s getting me burned out right now. I wish I had time to just go out and hang out but I don’t. School has its trade offs and everyone says it will pay off in the long run but I want a life now. It will be so great to be able to just go out and do what I want when I want after I graduate. I’ve had people I met get frustrated because of me and my studying. Well, I gave it up for a man last time and I’m not doing it again. Most of my friends now what the deal is and respect that. Two new friends T&P, are really understanding. So, I can’t say school is the main reason why I haven’t gotten out there. I haven’t gotten out there because I had such low self esteem was not a fun person to be around. I think that is changing and will continue to change.

Ok, enough of the downer stuff. What kind of friends am I looking for? Well I want guys who are laid back, easy going and just nice guys. The guy next-door types. I’d love to find guys into golf, but I know that won’ be easy. But I want to get a great group of friends together to go to Braves games, camping, hiking, rafting, golfing, and just hang out. I’d love to grill out with friends in the summer, hang out drink some beer and talk. I don’t want guys who go out all the time. I like to go out occasionally but every weekend is way too much.

I also want guys who like road trips and going somewhere spontaneously. Or for that matter just call me up and say, “Hey let’s go to dinner or a movie” on a weeknight. I know it’s hard to find easy going laid back guys in the gay world. I don’t know why. I’m really tired of the typical gay club guys. You have to wear the right clothes, go to the right clubs, drive the right car, have the right job and all that. I don’t care about any of that, well maybe except the undies they wear LOL, but as long as you’re a good guy I don’t care what you do. For work I look at it this way you gotta do what you gotta do, so I never fault anyone for a job they have or second job, I have more respect for a guy who will do what he has to do, rather then one that refuses to get a job because it’s beneath him. It shows he has character and is a good person.

If you’re in the Atlanta area, or TN, AL, SC or NC, ah heck, anywhere actually, send me an email and say howdy. I’d love to make friends all over. When I get out of school I want to travel some. I wouldn’t mind meeting some guys off line and be friends with in anywhere in the world. Hey what’s the worst that will happen? You could have me as a friend.

Thanks again guys!

FORE! I played a few holes last night

OK, get your mind out of the gutter, not those kind, but golf. I had my final lesson last night and we played 3 holes. Was fun. The first hole I teed off really well, knocked it str8 down the course and not quite to the fairway. But it was a nice shot. Then the next few times I did it it sucked. LOL, gonna take a lot of practice.

The other times I teed off, I didn’t do so well. Or using the irons on the course, but the last hole I did hit it up the short hill to the green pretty good with my pitching wedge. I was happy. I just need to relax and have fun. So where are the gay guys into golf?????? If you’re a gay golfer say howdy!

Life took a turn yesterday, and I’m taking it surprisingly well or I’m in total denial. I work with family and something’s are tight with money and I haven’t been getting paid. Thank god for student loans, and tonight I find out if I have to drop my class or not and I’m really ok with it. I have grown some. Before I’d be freaking out, But it’s all good.

I also have had more friends read my blog and that really makes me happy. I hope more read it and hope that more do and others. I have decided to do something fun and just to gain traffic, do a hot man of the week. Or hot guy of the week. Every week post a pic of some hottie that does it for me. I’m not going to do just the typical smooth muscle twink. I’m going to mix things up. I like the way that Muscleboy in training does his. I got the idea from him, but plan to do it weekly and do all kinds of guys.

I am trying to get the traffic and more people reading. Post comments PLEASE, let me know what I’m doing right! Or wrong or just to find out more about me. Email me too. I did something too today that I shouldn’t have done. I got more Target undies, they rock and some BodyGlove boxer briefs, yeah I know I hate them but these rock, they are just like I like them tight and holds everything in place.

Well check back often and soon, I play to post a few times a week

Have a great one!

Hey Remeber Me?

You know there at days when something you thought you dealt with just comes back like a freight train. Yesterday was that day, it happened while talking to J2 were talking and I won’t go into what it was about, but the conversation was pretty innocent enough, but after it was over it really got me thinking of why I have been doing things in my life and how I could improve them.

We all know we’ve done stuff wrong, every one does, but it’s how you fix it that makes you the person you are. I’ve put off fixing a lot in my life; I used to be and sometimes still am, of the school, if I ignore it, it will go away. Which is never the case and it usually comes knocking on your door a lot later and with much more baggage for a longer stay. That’s what I’ve done with what I thought of yesterday. Things I thought were dealt with and over, are actually not. It was like I was hit with a ton of bricks, at one point while driving to school I almost broke down, I didn’t but I almost did.

I know some of you are thinking why did J2 do that? Well he didn’t do anything other then look out what was best for me. He was being a friend and he didn’t do anything wrong. It’s just one of those strange things when having a conversation, it triggers something else. This blog has been great for me to really open up and talk, I hope you enjoy it. You get to see the real side of me, part of it is because for a lot of people reading this, don’t know me and it’s kind of anonymous. The other reason is I have actually started to make major changes in my life and am working on being the best person I can be. It’s not an easy step or one that is done in 5 minutes, but I am building trust with other people and opening up and I’m not as negative as I used to be. So that’s a very good thing. It’s great having a friend like J2 in my life, for the short time I have known him, he has become a key player in my life and will be for sometime to come. Now if I can get him to read the blog! LOL, But he knows most of what’s in here before you guys do. He is the one person that knows more about me then anyone in the world. It’s great to have a friend you can tell the good and bad too and still be there and still be supportive.

Things are good today and I can’t complain, I just gotta stop being so hard on myself and holding me to different standards then everyone else. That’s basically what it boils down too. But hey you can prob tell a difference when I first started the blog and now!

Have a great day

Single Ain't So Bad

Ok, I make no bones about being single, kinda like my new god, Kathy Griffin, makes no bones about her being a D list celebrity, like Kathy I have embarrassed my inner singleness. I think she rocks, but moving on. You know I’m funny, down to earth, laid back, easy going and they don’t call me tripod for nothing! Yes that is true. I have references if you want to know, but don’t ask for pics cause I won’t send them. But What do I want? Well I want a guy who’s very laid back, and easy going. Not stuck in the gay drama scene, I don’t care if he goes out but don’t want the whole, did you see who he went home with last night, I don’t care who sleeps with who as long as he ain’t sleeping with my man. I want a guy who’s fun, and funny and keeps me laughing, there’s no easier way to get to me then laughing. That for me is the biggest turn on.

Ok, as for appearance, everyone goes, you have to be attracted physically before anything happens. That for me is not true. I have met several people and we became friends, and they weren’t Brad Pitt but nice guys and after I got to know them I really liked and though they were handsome. Their insides way out did their physical appearance and that to me is more attractive then the physical.

Hobbies and such. I would love a guy who would go camping, take a cooler of beer and grill out and have a great weekend. Invite a few friends a long and go have fun. In a camp ground near a bathroom! I’d also love a baseball fan, someone to go to games with and hang out. I think going to a Braves game would be an awesome first date.

I need an independent man too. One that has friends and we spend time away from one another and are comfortable with that. I think friends are one of the most important things in life and you have to make time for them. You need time with your friends. I’m not a very jealous person so I’m all about meeting new friends and hanging out.

Lastly, the most important topic, the bedroom. Now if you see me you think isn’t he sweet and cute and very vanilla, well think again! I’ve had my share of men, a friend used to say you’ve been around the block 4 times and stopped a every house twice. Yeah that’s true, in my younger days I was a slut. I admit it, I embarrass the slut I was, but I’m not now but that’ doesn’t’ mean I don’t like to get a little freaky now and then. I think if you have a man you should get freaky as hell in the bedroom, not the same thing time after time. If my bf comes to me and says let’s try this, I’m usually like, LETS GO!

I need to tell some former slut stories, or something here. But I hope this give you a better incite about me.
Have a great one

Underwear Ads

Most of you don’t know I have a unique collection. I collect underwear ads. Yup that’s right ads of undies. It’s no secret that I have a fetish for sexy undies (bikinis, thongs, and the like), Speedos, spandex and sports gear. So about a year ago I was bored on eBay and put in Jim Palmer Jockey Ad, and it came up. Those ads were hours of enjoyment for me in the 80’s. Now I wish I would have cut them out and saved them. I bought a lot of them on Bay aned it’s really cool to have them now. I also collect modern day ads too, the ones today are so sexy. Usually Out, Instinct or one of those has great ads.

So I’ve been doing this about a year and when I get my own place, I’m going to frame some of them an hang them in my office. I have the original CK one of the guy in white briefs leaning back, Jim Palmer, ton of them, and a few other hot ones. But there is a series of ads, well two, by Fruit of the Loom, yup I said it, Fruit of the Loom, of Football players in a locker room and I think another of baseball players. Which I want, every time I’ve big on them on eBay I’ve lost. So I found the football one on a site for 17.99, debating whether to get it. It’s a great ad.

I know some of you out there are wondering why in the world would I collect them. Well as I’ve learned in school, some advertising has become art, and that’s true. There are truly some great ads out there. Some worthy of being framed and hung on the wall. I think that you should do things that improve your home, and I frame postcards and hang them up and just really inexpensive ideas for a change.

If any of you out there see those ads, EMAIL ME RIGHT AWAY, I def want them and it’s not easy finding underwear ads. Wish I would have saved all my old magazines now. Oh well, Just an insight into me. I’ll keep you posted on what I do with the ads, right now they are in a notebook, I personally think it would bed great to hang in an office at home. Now the problem would be if I ever date would the bf let me LOL, especially if we shared an office. HMMMM.

Have a great weekend and don’t do anything I wouldn’t! So that leaves it open.

A drunken phone call

Have you ever had a call from a friend, who was drunk? I know many of you have, and sometimes its like “OMG, could you shut up!” But I got one last night and the friend will remain nameless. But he called me and was like don’t judge me because he was drunk. But you know he’s one of those loving drunk kind, you know the “I love you man!” type. But this person I know has been through so much and was interesting, they really opened up to me with their defenses down and it was great. He said something that really intrigued me and I will ask him about it this weekend, what he meant.

We all go through things in life and need friends. I can tell that there is more then meets the eye. I really hope they open up and tell me what’s going on. I really think they need a friend and I hope I can be that. I know I’ve blabbed a lot on here and my life is changing and I’m seeing some good, but still have a long way to go. But hey I’m working on it!

I took a test in my logistics class last night and OMG I think its’ time to drop the class, I knew nothing at all. And I studied, so I won’t know for sure until Wed of next week. But I still can graduate in May even if I have to take another class.

But that’s it for today and I’m going to go get some golf clubs today, I hope and get a playing, Any gay guys out there into golf, EMAIL ME!

Cya later…..

Shopping and Follow up

Ok, many of you know that I’m big time into undies, Speedos and spandex. Well that’s no secret, but I have to tell you about the buy I got this week. If you’re in the market for undies, I suggest you get to Target ASAP; they are having a clearance on some of their best undies. They sell this kind of microfibre ones, 4.99 a piece, for a bikini/brief, boxers brief and a matching t-shirt. Well the red, blue and green are all on clearance, as well as a grey, for 2.98 a piece, yup you heard me right, that’s dirt cheap, and these are great undies, these are the same ones I mentioned in the stripper blog entry. I bought a few of them, the t-shirts were 6 bucks I think, and not a bad price but I didn’t get any. So check them out.

I also have been invited up to Rivers Edge for a Speedo weekend. The Atlanta Spandex group on yahoo is making a trip up there. I wish the guys in ATL were more into this stuff; no one ever does anything about gear. So I think a few of us are going I’m waiting to hear back, and will write about it when I get back, that is if it happens. Should be fun and I can wear the new ones I bought at the boy next door. I’m not really in Speedo shape but hell there will be people in worse shape then me there naked so, I think I’m just going to go for it.

A follow up to J2, ok I sort of vented on here about things, I sent him a very long and personal email. I apologized for being such a butthead on the phone and things are good, I just didn’t realize how thin he was stretched until we talked. I remember being pulled from all ends when I dated and you reach a point you have to say no. But we had a great conversation and things will progress and he will prob be my best friend. The kind of friend I have been looking for to tell everything too and just be a good friend back too. It’s great having him and like the old saying goes, it’s about communication and you have to do it. I do that with him and we have a good relationship and I think it will grow stronger over the next few months, Hell it feels like I know him for years and it’s been only since July. So that’s a good thing.

I have golf lessons in a few mins, I really have gotten into golf, I think I’ll have a good time at it. I have wanted to learn forever, but the major pain is going to be finding left-handed golf clubs. Cheapest I’ve found are 225 at sports authority, and that was online, I need to go by the store and see if they have any.

Also, softball starts up in two weeks or so, will be great to get back playing, luckily this is a very laid back group and should be fun. I’m batting and catching lefty, so this is a first and we’ll see how that goes.

Nothing else is going on other then just being burned out on school, I have a test tomorrow and I’m so not ready and I so don’t care. But I will come home after golf and study my butt off, we have some sort of problem and I gotta look that over. I just need a vacation and relax for about 4 days. Somewhere on the beach or mountains, but that won’t happen anytime soon. But oh well I’ll hang in there, J2 doesn’t know it but I’m going to suggest a weekend get away soon, me, him, his bf and prob one other person, but we’ll see! If I can pry them apart LOL for a weekend. I’m so bad. Heck I may just go camping by myself one weekend and relax. I need some me time. Don’t’ know where yet. But I’m rambling and I make no sense when I do that. So talk at you later!