Changes and Friends

As many of you know who are reading this blog, in the last month, there has been a bigger change in the blog and it has gotten more personal. Which I think is a good thing. I know why I do a lot of things I do, and I’m working on changing them. Which is not easy, nor is it an over night change. Right now I have very few friends to hang out with. Mostly it’s my own fault for doing it and I’ve let people go out of my life that would have been incredible friends. For that I will regret, but I can’t dwell on that fact and say, if only. That time has passed, and it’s time to move forward and get more friends and live my best life I can now and be a better person.

One thing about me and friends is I want new friends now! But the process of making friends is not one that happens instantaneously. It takes time and trust and you grow with the person. I guess that’s part of my frustration I’ve written before with J2, he’s one of my few friends and I want to see him and do things but with his schedule and new man it’s not possible. I still get hung up about it but it’s because I don’t have many other people to hang out with.

The main reason for this is School. This has become the foremost priority in my life. I have been going forever and I hopefully graduate in May of 2006. I’ve had group projects, papers and tests to do and frankly it’s getting me burned out right now. I wish I had time to just go out and hang out but I don’t. School has its trade offs and everyone says it will pay off in the long run but I want a life now. It will be so great to be able to just go out and do what I want when I want after I graduate. I’ve had people I met get frustrated because of me and my studying. Well, I gave it up for a man last time and I’m not doing it again. Most of my friends now what the deal is and respect that. Two new friends T&P, are really understanding. So, I can’t say school is the main reason why I haven’t gotten out there. I haven’t gotten out there because I had such low self esteem was not a fun person to be around. I think that is changing and will continue to change.

Ok, enough of the downer stuff. What kind of friends am I looking for? Well I want guys who are laid back, easy going and just nice guys. The guy next-door types. I’d love to find guys into golf, but I know that won’ be easy. But I want to get a great group of friends together to go to Braves games, camping, hiking, rafting, golfing, and just hang out. I’d love to grill out with friends in the summer, hang out drink some beer and talk. I don’t want guys who go out all the time. I like to go out occasionally but every weekend is way too much.

I also want guys who like road trips and going somewhere spontaneously. Or for that matter just call me up and say, “Hey let’s go to dinner or a movie” on a weeknight. I know it’s hard to find easy going laid back guys in the gay world. I don’t know why. I’m really tired of the typical gay club guys. You have to wear the right clothes, go to the right clubs, drive the right car, have the right job and all that. I don’t care about any of that, well maybe except the undies they wear LOL, but as long as you’re a good guy I don’t care what you do. For work I look at it this way you gotta do what you gotta do, so I never fault anyone for a job they have or second job, I have more respect for a guy who will do what he has to do, rather then one that refuses to get a job because it’s beneath him. It shows he has character and is a good person.

If you’re in the Atlanta area, or TN, AL, SC or NC, ah heck, anywhere actually, send me an email and say howdy. I’d love to make friends all over. When I get out of school I want to travel some. I wouldn’t mind meeting some guys off line and be friends with in anywhere in the world. Hey what’s the worst that will happen? You could have me as a friend.

Thanks again guys!