Hot Guy of the Week #11

Today is Shirtless Beefy Boy Day! Nothing is better then some shirtless Grade A beef! I was only going to do a few but since I didn't have my sh*t together this am, and I posted this late I decided to give you the beefy boy jackpot! No captions necessarty today!



















DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

List of Things

I got this list from Mr. Brian, figured it was a great filler till I can get a real entry done!

(x) smoked a cigarette
( ) crashed a friend's car
(X) Got drunk with a good friend
( ) stolen a car
(X) been in love
(X) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
(X) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house

( ) been arrested (I Plead The Fifth!)
(X) gone on a blind
( ) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
(X) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(X) eaten Sushi
( ) been skiing.. snowboarding

( ) been moshing at a concert
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(X) lain on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding

(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
(X) felt an earthquake/tremor
(x) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood

(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car crash
( ) had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime

(X) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(X) been to the opposite side of the country
(X) swum in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons (Why haven’t I?)
(X) sung karaoke

(X) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain (Maybe soon)
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach

(x) crashed a party
(x) gone roller-skating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(X) sung in the shower
(X) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something

( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone

( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) gone doorbell ditching
( ) played chicken
(X) jumped into a pool/hot tub/lake with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it

(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(X) have a Britney Spears CD - (OK, shoot me)
(x) forgotten someone's name (all the time)
( ) French braided someone's hair
(X) gone skinny dipping in a pool (Love this one, anyone with a private pool in Atlanta?)
( ) been threatened to be kicked out of your house
( ) been kicked out your house
(x) have had a fantasy over someone you love as a good friend
(X) sun tanned naked
( ) ran naked in the rain (hopefully soon, HINT HINT)

Please Stand By!

Sorry for not many posts, but it's finals time! I know it sucks but I have to get it done. I'm working on a few good posts and will post them as soon as I can, and I won't forget about the hot guy of the week either! Wish me luck. I hopefully will post more tomorrow or Wed.
Thanks guys

Hot Guy of the Week #10

For the 10th week I bring back one fo the first hot guys of the week. He was in the group of 3 guys. I love his speedo

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

Music, Makes the People Come Together

Ok, one thing you have to know about me is that music plays a big part in my life. I don’t know where I heard it the other day but it said music is there in good times and bad. That’s so true. For me there are certain songs that make me happy, sad and one in particular that when I’m feeling down will just make me totally loose it. I know what you’re thinking now, what song? Well I’ll let you post comments and see if you can guess it, but I’ll give you a clue, it was done in the 90’s (I know big hint) and a guy sings it and he was a solo artist. Other then that you’re on your own.

For some reaons I like women singers better then men. I’ve always been that way, I’m not sure why. Some of my favorites are Faith Hill, who I’m watching right now on her NBC special, I should have taped it but I forgot too, DOH, I have loved her last three albums. But more on that later, other favorites are Gloria Estefan, Vanessa Williams, and the typical gay music Cher, Barbara, Bette Midler. As for men I love Elton John, prob have the most of him then anyone else, Garth Brooks, Brad Paisley, Tim McGraw, to name a few. Some fo the Groups I like are of course ABBA, Brooks & Dunn, Pet Shop Boys. These are just to name a few there are much much more that I like. And this is off the top of my head, I have a boat load of CD’s so I never can recall what I have off the top of my head, but it’s in the computer! Yeah I’m a geek.

But there are a few artists that just speak to me. You know you hear a song and it just speaks to you. Like the singer reached in your soul and pulled out a song and is singing just to you. There are a few artists who do this, the main one is Stevie Nicks. I don’t know what it is about her songs but there is a connection with her music. It just touches something in my soul. The other singer who really does this is another singer songwriter, Cheryl Crow, which is ironic, when All I want to do is have some fun, came out, I hated it, and really tuned her out. Then she came out with songs like Every Day is a winding Road, Favorite Mistake and I really took note of her and now I’m hooked, I think she totally rocks. I haven’t heard her new album but I have her greatest hits and I just love it. The last one, I have already mentioned, and she’s not a song writer but she picks songs that just do it for me, that’s Faith Hill. Her last two albums really have some great songs on it. I really liked the album Cry, it’s got some great songs and so does Firefly. Probably my favorite song by Faith Hill is “Like we never loved at all” with her sexy husband Tim McGraw. Just a great song after you’ve broken up. Just I felt the song the first time I heard it. This album has some great songs, another line I like is “stealing kisses from a boy, now you’re begging affection from a man, In my house dress, don’t you know who I am?” DAMN, that’s a line.

As I said earlier music touches me. When I’m depressed I can’t hear happy music, it has to be down and slow, when I’m mad I want to hear very loud and fast. Also when I’m upset or something is going wrong I listen to Motown. Classic Motown, Marvin Gaye, Supremes, Four Tops and the Temptations. Just something about it calms me down. And when I’m mad or upset I also sing really loud and to anything in the car, usually something that is very emotional and I’m sure I hack it to shreds, I can’t sing a note. Like I say the only person that has to suffer from my signing is my man. LOL I laugh for obvious reasons. But that’s in the car with the iPod, and I will say Apple rocks and has the best MP3 player, and no I’m not biased.

Yeah I have very diverse music interests. It drives people crazy. Let’s see what’s in my iPod now…
• Eagles – The Vest Of The Eagles
• Faith Hill – Firefly
• Cheryl Crow – Greatest Hits
• Billy Joel – Greatest Hits III
• Jodee Messina - Delicious Surprise
• Kathy Griffin – Podcasts From Her Show
• M People – Bizarre Fruit
• Paula Abdul – Greatest Hits
• Pet Shop Boys – Pop Art.
• Rascal Flats – Feels Like Today
• Rupaul – Foxy Lady
• Shania Twain – Up!
• Tim McGraw – Set This Circus Down
• Tina Turner – All The Best
• Abba – Millennium Collection.

Damn I have a lot of greatest hits on there. Didn’t realize how many I had till now. HMM gotta do something about that. I love the iPod because I can create play lists and just go, I made a killer CD a while back wished it could be longer, and now it can, I just have to find it and figure out what I put on it. But oh well. I hope this gives you a little in sight to me, a little more. I guess I’ll list my favorite songs right now.
• Pussy Cat Dolls – Don’tcha!
• Gwen Steffani – Hollaback Girl
• Faith Hill – Like We Never Loved At All
• Eagles – Hotel California
• Elton John – All That I’m Allowed
• Tina Turner – Open Arms
• Pet Shop Boys – Always On My Mind.
• Jodee Messina – My Give A Damn Is Busted

Just to list a few!

PS - I think if you didn't know I was gay that grafic sure lets you know! LOL

Lost Hot guy of the Week

This is the pic i was going to use a few weeks back but couldn't find. I thougth it was the same as this past entry but it's not. Hope you enjoy him,notice the same suit!

OK working on getting the thumbnail to work but click on the pic and you can see it full sized undistorted

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

My Birthday.... It's All About ME!

Well, today was my birthday, and usually I’m all into but this year, with the sprained ankle and such I’m in no mood for it. But usually the birthday is the end all be all of the year for me. I guess I should explain why it’s so important to me.

Well, its just something that can’t be taken away from me. Even in the darkest days I had in my life I always had the birthday. I guess I took it as a celebration of me. I had some really bad times in my teens and early twenties and accepting being gay, making everyone happy and no self confidence. Which for the most part I have worked out a lot of that. I guess it’s hard for me to put into words on a page, in my mind it all make sense but actually putting this down into words just is hard. I don’t to sound like a total nutcase but as someone told me we all grow up in time and I guess my time is now.

It’s just I’ve never made a fuss about anything in my life. I’ve always been low key and laid back and as I told someone this birthday about what present to get me. I said “Look, I don’t care what you get me, it can be something for $2 or $2,000, as long as it comes from the heart, I’m one of the few people I know that still think it’s the thought that counts.” Which is so true with me. If you put thought and say, OMG Tim would love that, means so much more to me. But I guess growing up I always wanted a big party and never had them, I had a few close friends rather then a large group. Which I still have today, close friends that is. Which you have read about most of them.

This birthday is different for some reason, I guess because I’m going through a lot of transitions this year. Which for some reason made me seem old this week. It’s not the number 35, its just so much has happened this past year that I realize it’s time to move into the next part of my life. Graduate College, get my career started and get a good man. Well I may have one of those done, lol but we’ll see, and I’m talking about the man part. But I’m taking is slow and so is he, so that’s a great thing. I wonder what he’ll think when he reads this. Yes he reads this daily LOL, and how can I write something I don’t want him to know LOL, I guess I shouldn’t pic a public forum, but I’m glad he reads it, He surprised me the other day and quoted things off the blog and it made me feel special.

I’m supposed to be talking about why my birthday is so important to me. HMMM I’m telling you this is much easier when I think about it then write it. I guess it boils down to it makes me feel special. For once the attention is on me, which is very unlike me, I’d rather be the person behind the scenes working rather then the person center stage, I’ve always liked that. The birthday I’m on center stage. One day a year isn’t bad. See that wasn’t hard, lol I just had to ramble on for a bit. I guess we all need to feel special sometimes.

Cute Guy of the Week #9

Hot Swimmers Day!



This guy is so cute to me. Love his jammers and he's just an all american boy next door type.



I love this guys jammers, he was supposed to be a guy of the week a few weeks back, but the pic would never load. I'm not sure what school he is with but I love the jammer with the red waistband, I know they have speedo styles like this, I want one, any one know what school this is?

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

T is for Thanksgiving, um not today it’s for Thong

Ok I make no excuses for me liking thongs. I think they are sexy, others do, so I say to each their own. But the day started off with me reading my blogs and on the Towleroad. They have a top story the Marquette University lacrosse team was suspended from campus due to hazing that happened with thongs, beer and bongs. Yes that’s right str8 boys in thongs. Below is a pic that was posted on the net from the alleged “hazing”



Why is it that I have found tons of pics of str8 frat boys in thongs? Hmm kinda makes you wonder. Mainly the pics are at parties and such but still, where are the boys getting the thongs. Some are women’s thongs that they got from friends but some are men’s thongs and you just don’t see many frat boys going to buy thongs. But here are a few more pics of str8 guys in thongs.



This was just the start of the day, that would have thongs at the center front of my day. Well I was on aol bored and chatting, and ran across one guy who had pics in thongs. He’s a bi guy and the same guy in Gwinnett that took pics of me years ago took pics of him. I noticed the same kitchen and headboard on the bed. So we chatted for a bit and he has the butt for a thong. Then he stopped talking. Figures with online chat sometime. But hey got to check out some nice pics.

Then another guy I talked to about a year ago sent me a message about what he did in his thong that I convinced him to buy last year. I haven’t met him but he told me some interesting things, that his massage therapist did after the massage, you don’t have to have too much imagination to realize what happened.



So it’s been a very interesting day so far, never guessed today would be a thong day rather then turkey day! Kidna interesting if you ask me. Hope to see more thongs around!

Not a good two for day….

I found out last night that J2’s partner or new bf is in the hospital, I may have mentioned this already but, he called me last night and said he was on the way to the hospital, but he didn’t sound worried, and I thought he was being a smart *ss, just like we do to each other. Just like I told him the other night Thomas and me had a fight and it was over. I’m so bad. But he wasn’t kidding. His bf was admitted with appendicitis. I called him this morning and he said they were taking him to surgery at 9 AM and then called he called me later around 3 and said that there was no news.

Well the day went on, and I’ve sprained my ankle again, I’m so tired of it, but that’s another story. But around 7 he called me back and said that his appendix had ruptured so they couldn’t do the easy one they had to actually cut him open and do it. Not good, so J2 is a little stressed about everything and understandably so, I told him I’d help him as much as I could. But not sure how well I’ll be with this ankle. So I told him to call me later, but he said he talked to his man and that he seemed good, well as could be expected, but I just hope everything goes well. Keep a good thought for him.

As for my ankle, grrrr, there’s something with the ligaments or something below my ankle on the inside of my foot that every now and then it just goes out. I gotta get a job and insurance again. Luckily I’m watching the Faith Hill special, so far so good, I gotta write my blog entry about music. Oh well, I just need a hug tonight, just been a crummy day. Ok, gotta put my foot up and hopefully get better before Friday so I can go out and have fun….grrrrrrrr

The Internet is a Wonderful Place and the Sox Rock!

Yes and today I mean it, unlike a lot of times where you run across useless info or a trick you have long tried to forget but runs across you and won’t let go. But today it is a good thing. I was on Bear 411 the other week and got a message out of the blue. It was someone I knew a few years back, who we’ll call Sox Fan, because he’s a big Red Sox fan.

Ok we need a little background on Sox Fan, well we met on AOL a few years back. We both like undies and he’s the one who told me about the straight boy who wore a thong. I was like NO WAY, but from what I remember his gf at the time narced him out. So we talked underwear and he told me that he got thongs in Wal-Mart. Which took me like two years to find here in Atlanta area. Then for some reason we lost touch. For what reasons I don’t recall.

Then as mentioned above he sent me a message out of the blue on Bear 411 and I was like this is a small world. We reminisced a little and caught up. He moved and got a man. They have been together for over a year but known each other for a while. He’s supposed to come down for a wedding, with someone he went to college with. He went to UGS in Athens. Which would be great to meet him. And he invited me up to Maine to his beach house this coming summer. So gotta get my ass to the Gym and work out and wear my Speedos again.

But he called me this am and mad me jealous, he and his partner didn’t have sex once but twice, once last night and once the night before, grrrrr, I’ll leave out the detail that got me the most today LOL it’s funny. But he asked did he have an entry and I said, you deserve your own entry.

He’s got the Boston accent that I love, shh don’t tell my southern friends I maybe shipped out of the south. We talk a few times a week online and on the phone. You know Sox fan is one guy I wish I lived in the same town. Usually my luck is like that. I meet really great guys but usually they are 1000 miles away, But I think the tide is turning on that, this past year I have met J2, Thomas and a few others. So life is pretty good. Now I’m going to try and get Sox fan to post a comment or heck, maybe get him to write up a bit about me and be my guest blogger for the day, I think I’ll offer Thomas the same but he doesn’t have to take me up on it right now but the offer is there, he has his own blog which I need to link, I’ll do that soon. I have to say, he reads the blog daily so I’m sure he’ll read this before we talk. He’s out of town right now. LOL well I guess I’ll have to be good, darn LOL But back to my point of my posting, I’d love to hear what Sox Fan has to say about me. Ok Sox Fan, you wanna guest blog? The ball is in your court, I’ll post it unedited (except for naughty words), what do you say?

Birthday Celebration… strippers?

Yes it’s a two for day! Ok the birthday came and went, well the celebration. It was a very low key I gathered with 8 of my good friends and we did dinner at Maggiano’s, and man was it good. I love Maggiano’s so much. I had some very good friends I’ve had for a while and some new ones. It was a good nite and I had a DATE, yeah the new man went with me. I have a group of friends who are, how shall we say, very outspoken, and he fit right in. It’s the large personality thing. LOL, but something tells me there is a lot to learn about him. Kinda of like an oinion, there are many layers to him. But more on that later.

But the day began with me and Thomas going to the gay rugby match. It was full of beefy boys, great eye candy. I had my work out partner, who never worked out with me come up to me and I had no clue who he was, I suck at recognizing people after talking on line or meeting once. I think he was pissed but hey I was honest I didn’t know who he was. Then the rugby team had a beer bust at Burkharts and we went, none of the rugby boys were there, and we left around 4:30 to get to dinner by 6. I was told by M&T that we were going to the early bird special. But the one in Buckhead only had 3 or 10, so when Perimeter said 6 I was on that. So we went to dinner. The only problem with dinner is that it was too noisy and J2 sat at the end of the table and he didn’t get a chance to say anything with Thomas, or my end of the table. Well next year I think I’ll have a party so everyone can talk. But the food was great, the only thing I wanted was Veal Parmesan. Which I got and killer chocolate cake. I think our waiter Mike was gay. He is a beefy Italian guy, he was sexy to me. But it was a low key night. M&T gave me the Oprah 20th anniversary DVD set, which I wanted, yeah I can be such a homo at times, and got a few other things and Mr. Thomas was dead on in his gift it was scary.

Then me and Thomas went back to his house and hung out and M&T went over to see J&B new house, which shhh you didn’t hear it from me but J&B are no more, so they went with B. then we went to the Eagle for a minute and I had a drink and then went back to Mr. Thomas’ house. It was great. The Eagle T asked me what my angle was, he said me dating was unnatural LOL, you have to know him, he said “Your angle is he’s rich and you’re going to roll him” LOL god I love those too. We went to the gift shop, aka the leather store, and they have a lace up lather jock, if I had been working I would have bought it for myself for my birthday, and put it on right there LOL but alas, no money.

And no there is not hot story like the thong from the stripper last year, but there will be a make up date for naked people. I hopefully will have a good story to tell about that.

If it ain’t broke don’ fix it…. The new Poseidon Adventure.

Ok, I finally got finished watching the new Poseidon Adventure on NBC that I taped, yeah I taped it, not in the Tivo generation yet. I’m still on the A/V limited access road rather then the information super highway. One thing you should know is that I love 70’s disaster flicks. Airport, all four movies, Towering Inferno, and Earthquake. I had my reservations about the redo of one of the most classic disaster films of all time. The original had a great cast, Gene Hackman, Shelley Winters, Leslie Neilson, Earnest Borgnine, Red Buttons, Roddy McDowell and Jack Albertson. Compare this to the new cast Adam Baldwin, Ruetger Hower, Steve Goutenberg, and C. Thomas Howell. Not exactly a step up from the original cast.

Moving on to the plot, well the original is set on New Years eve, when a tidal wave comes and capsizes the ship, and they have to race up through the ship and the obstacles they encounter. Who could forget the “Manny!” screams for Shelley Winters. But the new version had, instead of a tidal wave, terrorist plant bombs on the ship and explode one and the ship capsizes. Now, forget all about the characters in the original. We have a dysfunctional family and the affair the father has with a waitress, the bishop and the Shelley Winters character.

Well continuing on the plot. This plot had to been the worst for a remake. You know there are two philosophies for doing a remake. 1. Either make it better then the original, which happens from time to time, sorta like Oceans 11. 2. Make it campy as hell. Best example of this is the Brady Bunch. This did neither. This would be making Lord of the Rings with the cast of any WB comedy. Just wouldn’t work.

I can’t believe I actually taped it and watched it. Will I ever learn? I should know better then watch a Made for TV movie. If I want Drama I should go tune in Lifetime, at least they know drama.

Hot Guy of the Week #8

A cutie


The muscle boy next door

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

I HAD A DATE!

Yes its true. Well it was a meet someone off line, but it turned out to be a three hour conversation. So I guess that would be considered a date. I consider those one hour, meet and greets, just that, nothing more. But I met Thomas: The Mo, as he requested to be referred by. And for the record, I did tell him I was going to write about him in the blog. Ok on with the story, we met, well I’ll leave that a mystery for now, but it was online and we did chat for about two weeks. I have my late class on Monday nights and we met at a bar in East Atlanta and we talked for three hours, I kid you not. And the really amazing thing is I never checked my watch aka cell phone, once for the time. With me that’s pretty good, in fact that’s’ just damn amazing. But Thomas was just so easy to talk to and the night just zoomed by. I wish we could have talked more but I needed to get home and get stuff for class the next day.

But let me tell you about him, first off he’s got the guy next door looks, which we all know I like more then anything. With me keep the models and the people like that, they are stuck on themselves. Just regular guys just get me going and get my attention. Well, he also has a large personality, which means he’s very colorful and funny and just he has a presence about him with I really like. Get your minds out of the gutter too, I know what you were thinking. He has a job, which is good and it’s involved in the arts, and I think he’s pretty intelligent as well, and we all know I can’t go out with a stupid guy, nothing drives me crazy then trying to talk about things in the world and they look at you like you’re speaking Chinese. With Thomas I can actually talk and I have realized that what I’ve said before, I want man who’s smart but also intelligent in other areas then me. I think this is Thomas too. It’s been pretty interesting.

And yes I have been myself and stated things up front. The truth from the beginning. Which I have gotten flack from many readers and friends. You shouldn’t do that and you shouldn’t say that and all sorts of stuff, Well I think Thomas is the same way, we’ve joked about both being commitment phobic, and I know I am, and it’s pretty cool, he’s just laid back and easy going about things. But the great thing about him is his sense of humor, OMG he made me laugh all night long and I hope I made him laugh too. Sense of humor is the key for me, make me laugh and you’re so in. Nothing sexier then a funny man.

But, we’ve chatted since our date, which was 3 days ago and both say we want to take things really slow and let things happen and evolve over time. Which is awesome to me, in this town you’re married after a week. I don’t want someone to marry, I want someone to get to know, hang out and take it from there. We’ll just take it one day at a time and see what happens. BTW he has his own blog too, so I’ll post a link to it as well. Just wanted to let you know what was going on and I did have a date! And yes we have another date in the works and a third, go figure, LOL, this is new to me, a third date, wonder what you do on it LOL, and for the record, we didn’t have sex the night we met, just talk and a hug!

I have a following! Well 3 steady readers but It’s a start.

Ok, well it’s not all that, but I have knowledge of a few regular readers. Which I’m pretty psyched about. I am very happy how the blog has taken off. I have a few really good links, from the view from 35,000 feet which does blog reviews, thanks guys and from Rocketman’s Launch Pad. Thanks Rick, and the entry I did about Skin Tight parties really did some great stuff. I just thing it’s awesome in one month I doubled my total hits. Thanks guys. I have one link that is in Spanish and I’m not quiete sure it’s a good post, so if anyone speaks Spanish let me know, I want to know what is being said about me, babblefish didn’t tell me much.

And before I get into the entry, be warned the postings over the next two weeks may not be as frequent, school work and the birthday are coming up. And for those who know me, the birthday is an event, it’s a week long celebration, that is being cut back this year, grrr, due to funding problems, yeah that’s it. But next year will be back in full force.

Ok, since I have somewhat of a following, I wanted to share some of my favorite blogs I read regularly.


Joe.My.God - I have to say this is one of the first blogs I ever came across. And I love the way Joe writes, he’s witty, funny and totally sounds like the kind of guy I could go grab a beer/drink with and just talk for hours. He lived in Tampa and reminds me so much of my friend T, (of M&T) and emailed Joe once and asked was there something in the water about Tampa and long, involved, funny stories. They have similar stories, I wonder if they ever met…hmmmmmmm. He lives in NYC now and has just as many stories, One day I will be up on his level, I hope! Check him out I think he is the god of blogging.

Rocketman’s Launching Pad - Formerly Rocketman’s Ramblings, I think, a guy in Chicago in the Chorus up there and I think he reminds me a lot of me in ways. He seems like such a great guy, from the blog postings I’ve read. Check him out as well plus he gave me a link from his site. Which I didn’t know he did! Till I check Technorati one day. Thanks Rick, and he just went on a date so go read all about it, he sounds sweet as hell.

Kinda Like Porn, No Real Plot - Billy is the first blogger I talked too. He’s a great guy and has some really funny stuff on his site. You can read about him and is partner on his site. He’s a great guy so go over and check him out.

A Muscle Boy in training - http://www.laakapu.org/ - this is a blog with good eye candy. For the life of me I can’t remember his name but he’s a teacher in Hawaii and the title says it all.

Scott-o-rama - Scott has a great blog for more eye candy and It’s fun to read about him and his bf, buckaroo. He lives in AZ and I think is another great writer. He is one of the people in the blog world I wish I could grab a beer with and talk, just think he’d make a great friend.

Large Tony - And yes Tony is large, and I ain’t talkin’ as in weight, I’m talking something else, you know what I mean. I think I have some things in common with Tony. I think me and him have very similar personality aspects. But he posts about once a week but they are pretty good posts.

Best Gay Blogs - This is a great site to find other blogs. I hopefully will be reviewed on it soon, I know they are busy and have a lot of blogs waiting to be reviewed. But I’m happy they linked me from the site, if they never review me then that’s ok, but I have a link on a very high traffic site. But check it out almost daily for new blogs and and reviews.

Towleroad - This is a site devoted to sports, and hot pics from sports. Are we noticing a theme here? LOL Yeah I like blogs with hot pics on it. But not all on this list are. But some are great writers.

Mr. Brian’s Opinions - I like Brian’s blog because I was told by Billy that me and him did underwear posts the same week. LOL Again another small world. I read him and he’s written a book, so it’s pretty cool to read his blog.

Sodomy Creek - An Atlanta guy, he is dating with Monotonous. I think it’s cool to read what other guys in ATL are writing about and what’s going on.

Monotonous - Again he is dating Sodomy Creek, for the life of me I can’t remember names, I know know bad Tim, but he just got an iBook as well so It’s great when you read about people switching to Mac

Boys Briefs - Chris, see I do know some names, is another Atlanta guy and writes about everything. He just started dating a guy and I think likes undies as well. He had a cool Halloween costume, and just got an inteterview on Best Gay Blogs. I thought at first he was a circuit boy but he’s really impressed me with his blog.

So these are what I’m reading, I know this week I’ve been slack but it’s been a busy school week. I actually had a date, with Thomas: The Mo, yes that’s what he asked to be called, and I already told him I’d be writing about him in the blog. So I hopefully will have it posted tomorrow. But no promises.

Hot Guy of the Week #7

Ok, this image his HOT to me, A swimmer in jammers holding a football. I love it when the combine two things!



This is one reason I like football and specifically Texas A&M, I love thier baseball team but the main reason I like thier football team is thier pants are see through. As you can see in this series of pics. I had to post all of them, they were just too good not too!



hmmmmmmm



yummmmmm



Need help; stretching???

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

Breaking up…. What’s the best way to get on after it’s happened.

I have two really good friends who just broke. And I must say I was not surprised, I was more surprised it took so long. But I won’t go into details about it, just not fair to either of them and it’s so far been a civil break up for someone who’s been together for over 3 years. Which is a good thing. But it got me thinking. This situation is very much like the one I had with my ex. What do you do when one partner is over the whole relationship and the other will do anything to save it?

I’ve been on both ends of this but the longest relationship I had was over 2 years, and I was the one who wanted to save it. Looking back now, you see things so clearly, hindsight is 20/20. What happened was for the best, but when I was in the situation it was not. Its my feeling that if you’re the party who is over the relationship and you have tired to fix what was wrong and it can’t be fixed or the other person is unwilling to fix it, ti’s time to end it and move on. A lot of people say, “well what about the other partner? Their feelings are going to get hurt” Yeah that’s very true, and it’s better to do it sooner then later. I think if you do it later, and you’re the one over the whole situation then you will only get worse as time goes by and resent your partner for having to stay there. It’s never easy ending a relationship (for most of us) that has gone on for many years but sometimes it’s for the best.

As for the one who wants to save the relationship. I made my ex promise me at the beginning if there were problems let me know, or if he ever wanted out tell me right then and not leave me hanging on. Well this didn’t’ happen. About a year before we broke up, it was my birthday party and he didn’t want to come and was over it, looking back now, this was the beginning of the end. He came to the party because my grandmother died that day and he was there for moral support. But things went down hill from there. We constantly fought, and life just became crappy. Then we had a talk and determined we should separate for a while. This really took me by surprise but you can’t make someone love you and if things progress so far with out anything being said or done to fix them, sometimes it’s just too late to change it. That’s what happened to me and my ex. He let things build up so much and kept things in so long that when they did come out he spend all his emotional energy already and to him it wasn’t worth saving. And I understand that, I hated him for many months but I realize that our relationship never had good communication and we never really talked. I don’t think we were good friends even. It was all about sex at times. Then after about a month or more of separation, he decided to end it and tell me on July 4th, I know quite ironic in a way. But before that I realized that things sucked between us and things would not change and I was actually thinking about doing the breaking up. But didn’t, now in his defense, he did it on the phone, which was not the way he wanted to do it, but you know when someone tells you they want to talk and you just instinctively know that it’s bad, that’s what it was that night. We have since made up and talk occasionally but I wouldn’t consider us friends, we are just too different I think. Do I still love him, no, I don’t, and I really don’t remember why I did, I know that’s sad to say but that relationship taught me a lot and I’m very glad I had it. The next one will be much better.

After we broke up I was convinced we would be together again, and we were meant for each other. Well I was one step away from a stalker I tell ya, but that never happened. For the first month or so I was devastated, Right when it happened, I was like I can’t date again, I don’t know what’s it’s like, it sucks dating, and all that. But it’s one of the best things that happened to me. Yeah in the beginning it sucked but every day it got better, and all things heal in time. Yeah I gave up dating for a while to find myself and I think I have, I think anyone who dates me now will have a much better friend and partner because of it. I have found out what’s important and what’s not. So break up’s are not a bad thing at all. Even though they seem your world is falling apart. I think it was really hard on me because I really had no friends at the time of the break up. If you have no friend you can’t possibly make it sane through it, there were times I thought I was going crazy, you need a friend to say, we need to get you out of the house and get your mind off things. Which I’m trying to do to my friends, both of them, which is something different, you’re friends to both but you’re in the middle. I just have to pay attention to what you say and keep word to both parties.

Just something that goes along with being terminally single!

Abs Required.... By Manhunt

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200 in One Day!

Whooo howooo, can you believe it I had 200 visitors in one day. I think over the past week and a half I have almost doubled my readership for the past year. I want to thank Droo for posting a link in his yahoo groups. Thanks for reading guys and check back often. This last week and a half has been sucking but hey can’t let it get me down. But I’m totally psyched about the increase in traffic (see graph below).





I have my site posted on a few more larger sites and I hope to get more readers soon. Now I have to come up with topics to write about and keep it fresh and new. This past week I wish I had a guest blogger to write, but I didn’t. maybe soon. Stay tuned and tell your friends!

Man that's SKINTIGHT!

Guys at SkinTight hanging out

Ok, I left you hanging yesterday, and here it is. SkinTight parties are the ones in NYC where guys get together at a bar and wear their spandex (biking, superhero, wrestling singlets, leather, latex and Under Armour, and much, much more). They can dance and drink and make a night of it. I think it's kind of like a celebration of your fetish. I don't know who thought up the idea but a guy named Droo, (yes I spelled it right), has become the spandex prince of NYC. He is the organizer and host from what I can tell of the parties.


More Guys at SkinTight hanging out, I love the guy in the speedo!

I have seen Droos pics online for a while and chatted with him on AIM. He seems like a great guy. He's big time into gear so you know he scores points with me! The parties have been at some other bars and have moved to the current one. At this one, it's preferred if you wear some type of skin tight clothing, but it's not necessary to get into the event. There is an area for people to change so they don't have to walk the streets of NYC dressed as a college wrestler, or as Spiderman. You can wear anything from an Under Armour shirt with jeans, or a latex catsuit. Mostly it's some type of lycra gear. Which I think is cool, because from what I understand about the last parties, they were in an open bar, and I know if I were going I'd stay home, to have the regular queens be bitchy about the gear and really tear into people (Make fun of them)* I'm of the school, if you're having fun and not hurting anyone, there's no reason for someone to make fun of them. That's just me though, & although I don't always live up to it, you never intentionally hurt someones feelings. I know there are tons of fetishes out there, some of which I don't quite understand, but as long as you're consenting adults, knock yourself out. Ok, off the soap box and back to reality.


Not sure what the guy on the left is wearing, either a skin suit or looks like a BMX suit, either way it's HOT

If I remember correctly the parties started as HardComixxx, with kind of superhero theme. Guys would dress up in superhero costumes, (spandex and the like), and get together. Now that is very hot! As a kid, who didn't want to strip Aquaman or Robin and have their way with them? As you notice they always drew the guys with big bulges. I guess the gay guys in the comic book world drew the men they way they wanted, and the str8 guys in the comic book world drew women with large breasts. Like most guys though I don't have a superhero costume and couldn't wear one that often. So I think the move to all things spandex really gets more guys involved. Rather then spending big money, (some of the Superman costumes I've seen have been over $400, & Droo told me about Spiderman suits upwards of $1,500.00!), you can wear something you already own and just go hang out.


Gear guy supreme Droo, in front in the red/black skinsuit

As you can see by some of the pics there are some guys who like to wear superhero costumes, and there are others who just wear spandex. I think it's a cool mix. You see guys hanging out, dancing and drinking beer. Now that's my kind of night. And btw, Droo said it was cool to post the pics. I wanted to make sure before I did. I think it's really cool that guys in NYC are really embracing their fetish. There have been guys who have come all the way from Greece, Europe, China, Australia, and from points all over the USA. I really want to go up and go to one. As you can see by the pics the guys aren't all super muscle studs, most are just average guys and to me that's perfect. I think the parties are awesome.


A hot super hero and latex/rubber suit on the other hot guy

You can keep up to date with party information at the following internet addresses:

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/SkinTightNYC/

http://hometown.aol.com/skintight212718/

Something Fun……

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Hot Guy of the Week #6

This guy is very cute to me. Just a guy next door type that I love! What a cute face!



OK had to make a change, due to the fact the pic wouldn't load right. This is a hottie in the pool. It makes me want to work out and get guns like that!

Enjoy more to come later


DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

Life Goes On.........

Ok, I planned to do something special for my one year anniversary of the blog but this week has really been one from hell. I found out Monday, quite unexpectedly too, that the family business closed. So that means that I’m out of a job, well as soon as we get everything wrapped up.

It’s kind of been a roller coaster of emotions. I never liked working for the family but, it was something that I wanted to succeed due to my parents. They put a lot of money in the business and that’s gone now. So I wanted to write a few things but just haven’t felt like it.

So now the task begins to find a job. I have one slight problem that will make it hard for me to find a job till December. I have a class two days a week, from 11 AM till 12:30 PM. I hope I can find a job in marketing. If anyone knows anything please let me know!

Happy One year Anniversary

Hey guys,
My one year blog anniversary was Monday, I wanted to do a great blog post but I found out Monday our family business is or was closed and kinda shot my day all to hell and i forgot bout my anniversary till now. YEAH One year, I plan on writing a few things but life kinda sucks right now but I will write tonight, It maybe a twofer day or threefer day. Who can say. Thanks for reading
Tim

Hot guy Update

Hey guys, been trying to update the Hot guy of the week, but Blogger is having issues uploading pics. Will keep trying through out the day! Have a great day and watch for hot beef here soon!

Hot Guy of the Week #5

Hmm, I love a guy in a baseball cap. This week it's' boys in baseball caps.



Nothing better then a beefy boy in a baseball cap!

Enjoy guys.

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

When a post isn't a post

Hey there, I know this week I’ve been very bad in posting. I try to go every few days and post. But this week I’ve done not much. I apologize, I have had a lot of school work and am working on a few good posts. Three new ones and I’m in no mood to write. I had to be up late last night, for the third night in a row, and do school stuff, run all over town for work and I’m just beat. I’m in no mood to write. I tired to write one easy one but it’s sucks. I also had a major test to day and I felt like we I was bitch slapped. Just a very hard test. I promise to write more this weekend and get some stuff together. Hang in there with me.

Underwear is Everywhere!

Ok, I’m going to talk about something fun. That is my fetish for Undies! Lately I have noticed that there sure seems to be a lot of underwear ads and pics of guys in undies everywhere. The most recent is the ad for Gay.com



This ad really took me by surprise. The undies around the ankles are pretty hot to me. “More then meets the eye.” I’m not sure this tag line really goes with the pic but hell, I don’t mind. But hey it gets me to stop and look. I wont’ go into advertising principles I’ve learned but, I’ll just enjoy the hot ad!

Another area that has taken me by surprise was Speedo is now making undies.



I couldn’t believe it, and they look pretty cool too. The only problem is the price, again back to the 20 bucks for a brief discussion I’ve had before. But price aside, the undies are cool as sh*t. I looked them over at the Speedo site and how can you go wrong with undies being modeled by Michael Phelps. I’m sorry I think he’s a total stud. Yeah he’s younger then I like them but there is something about him that drives me crazy. HMMMM, Now if they could just get him to model the undies on the site, I’d love it. The ads I have seen are online and show Michael in various sexy looks. Like the one above. WOWSA! Boy is he hot.



Another great ad is from C-IN2, from the guy who brought us 2(x)ist. The kick off ad showed two guys in C-IN2 undies. pants around thier ankles, getting arrested by two hot cops (see pic above). Now, I wouldn’t mind getting arrested by them, they are pretty hot cops. This ad I will say just kinda took me by surprise. Usually for most underwear ads they are just guys standing around in undies by themselves, or more then one but nothing much happening. This ad is pretty cool. I have yet to get an of the C-IN2 undies, but I think they are great looking and 2(x)ist was, hope to get some very soon.



I have noticed that there are fewer and fewer boxers these days. Which to me is a good thing. I hate boxers to wear and they aren’t the least bit sexy. I have noticed a lot more briefs and some bikinis. Some of the new brands that I see a lot of lately are Go softwear, Aussiebum, Baskit, CK, 2xist to name a few. They are all moving towards microfibre and making more form fitting undies. This is a very good thing. The pic I created from pics from the internet show this. A lot of guys are getting better undies. Not the typical tighty whities and boxers. They are getting more microfibre, colors and styles. As many of you know I hate boxer briefs with a passion, they are too loose and provide no support and bunch up. Unless they are like the bike shorts one or made out of microfibre. I love those. I think men’s undies is going high tech. We are getting more comfort and style then ever before. But one thing about the new boxer briefs or trunks as they call them is that they are very designed to be very eye catching and fun. Look at the 2(x)ist ones that are black and white. Those are pretty cool. Also CK is doing some really great stuff with undies. I’ve never been a fan of CK, except for the white briefs, but lately they are getting better at undies, I have a few pairs and they fit incredible. They have started to use many colors and different styles, which is great. Even Jockey is doing some really cool new undies. I think everything is moving towards form fitting comfort and that is great! Take a look at some of the pics from the box covers and off the company web sites



I think there is a turn in underwear makers for men. Underwear is definitely changing. Which is a good thing. The 90s and the first part of 2000s were so boring for underwear. All we had was white, black and grey. How boring is that. If you’re old enough to remember the 80s, then you remember men’s undies were fun. We had colors and patterns and they were great. This was the best time to be wearing bikinis; there were so many brands and styles. Which unfortunately went away by the early 90s. But there seems to be a come back and more colors are coming back. I should have a contest “Show me your sexiest Undies” and win some. HMMMM, but I don’t think I have enough readers to do that yet and I know a lot of you guys wouldn’t send in pics cause you’re my friends and I know you that well!

Has anyone else noticed this about undies lately? Or am I just imagining things? Would love to have some of you post comments and tell me what you think, even if you don’t have a thing for undies, I’m an equal opportunity comment whore, opps, requester!

Have a great day guys.

Hot Guy of the Week #4

I love these pics that guys take of themselves in the mirror. There should be a site of pics like this. I also have a thing for guys in baseball caps!


Ok, another fav of mine is a big beefy daddy type like this one! He is yummy and what more can you say.

DISCLAIMER: I make no claims as to the sexual orietnation of guys in the Hot Guys of the Week, they are pics of guys i think that are hot that i get off the net.

Seven Things

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. Go to Australia and Bondi Beach (hot men in Speedos, my kind of heaven)
2. Buy a House
3. Get a Career (Yeah, I need one desperately)
4. Go to Yosemite Park
5. Fall in love again (sometimes you gotta wonder)
6. Try Standup Comedy
7. Get a body that I can be proud of!

7 things I can do:
1. Change a Tire (I can be so butch)
2. Figure out market share and industry growth in marketing
3. Problem solve
4. Write pretty well, been told I have a unique style of writing
5. Tell a joke, so many can’t
6. Navigate anywhere in ATL and have a good sense of direction
7. Program my VCR

7 things I cannot do:
1. Sing, I’m worse then William Hung
2. Tie a tie, it’s true, I have someone tie it and keep it tied LOL sad huh
3. Hit a softball out of the park
4. Spell, dyslexia has a way of keeping you from doing it
5. Write a resume to save my life
6. Work a calculus problem (the only class I ever dropped)
7. Go on a third date (LOL, one or two but thirds are rare)

7 things that attract me to the SAME sex:
1. Humor
2. Eyes
3. Laid back personality
4. Great smile
5. A good butt, yeah I’m a butt man
6. Intelligence
7. Good conversationalist


7 things that I say most often:
1. Cool
2. Sweet
3. Whatever
4. FIX IT FIX IT FIX IT! (Said real fast, my new one)
5. It’s all-good
6. Don’tcha (insert any of the Pussy Cat Dolls song after that)
7. Good deal


7 celebrity crushes:
1. Jake Gyllenhaal

2. Ryan Reynolds

3. Javy Lopez

4. Cael Sanderson (Olympic wrestler)

5. Michael Phelps

6. George Eads (CSI)

7. Roger Clemens (yeah I like a lot of different types)



7 people I want to do this:

• I need more blog buddies!

Four More Years!

NOT, I think the whole 4 years, as I’ll call it, was good for me. But would I want to do another 4 years, HELL NO! You know I have made a lot of changes and have really focused on myself and getting my life in order. I will be the first to admit that I have really been lost at sea and really had not clue what to do with my life. I’ve always been my worst enemy. But this past year, things have turned the corner. You know I realized who stupid I was being and how I took things way to hard. The absence of sex, I think made me get out and sort out my problems. I used sex as an escape from my problems, and I was in the school of thought that if I ignore the problem it will go away. Which it never solves the problem it just gets worse.

The whole experience last week was kind of an awakening. I realized, A, how much fun it is and sex should be fun. And B. I have control over myself and what happens. To part A, you know I was a slut, I admit it and used to sleep around a lot. And at times it was a chore at times. To me doing the topping or the big deed to me seemed like a chore that I was supposed to do. I realized in the last few years that any time I have topped and really enjoyed it was when I knew the guy, dated, or was boy friends with the guy. The times I really didn’t get into it was, a trick or one nightstand. Last Friday was just awesome, and I really like blue eyes, and he wasn’t pushy about it. So I said to myself why not let’s do it. Secondly, I have control on what happens. For the longest time, I used to do what was expected of me or what I thought would make people happy. God, and that’s a never ending cycle, I mean you’re always trying to make people happy and you go out of your way, and the only one not happy is me. I had to realize to say no. Which is hard to do but once you do it, it starts to come natural. The first time I said NO, I was scared to death the person would say “To hell with you” but they didn’t, they were like OK, that’s cool. I was like WOW this works.

I think what’s really changed this year is I have developed some self confidence and self esteem. I think this is due largely to this blog and J2. It’s the whole, you have to be a friend to get a friend. This is never so true. I have been told over and over again that I was negative, and down and depressing. I know this was true too. I kept everything to myself and knew I could count on me, and that was the only person I could. Well I guess I finally reached the breaking point and I got the blog and J2 and a few other friends and I’m just now tell it all. I have been told that, especially, when it comes to dating, that I tell too much too soon, but you know I’d rather tell it now then have it come back later and haunt me.

Just a quick update on the 4 years, I’m going to try to write something fun later this week!

The Four Years

Ok, this has been the weekend on big changes. For those of you who know me, know that its been four years, Aug 2001 since I last did the big deed, if you don’t know it’s topping. Well as of last night the four years ended. Before I get into what happened last night let me explain the reason for the four years.

The last time I topped was Aug 2001, as I said and it was the time of an HIV test and they always freak me out, no matter how safe I always go “What if?” And the two weeks to get the results, I kept going, what about this, what about that, and I had played with someone who was HIV positive and didn’t tell me, so that was in the back on my mind. A friend back then that HIV is much harder to get then it was, and he knew what I did and how safe I was and that I had not much to worry about. Well the results came back negative and I realized it was time to make changes.

Up until that time, I was pretty much a slut. Yeah I admit it, something’s in your past you’re not proud of but you know it happened and it’s a part of what made me what I am today. I think you should never run from your past, you should embrace it and learn from it. I have not clue how many people I’ve been with or really cared. I used sex to fill a void in my life. Before I go any father, I want to say this, I’m not saying if you enjoy one nighters or sex, then you’re less of a person, hey as long as you and your partner you’re with know it’s just a one time deal and you’re safe go have fun. I just realized it was not for me. And I would be a hypocrite. I’m only a hypocrite on one thing and I’ll discuss that later. I had been pretty much a loner, and really the only really close intimate contact was tricking and one nighters. I had really low self-confidence and was really shy. I think as gay men we mistake sex for intimacy at times. Not always but I know I did back then. You think if you get naked and go at it then you’re intimate with someone, well you’re not. But it’s that close physical contact that we all crave and you get it for a few hours and then, at least for me it left me lonelier and emptier then before. To hear someone say you’re so hot, you’re incredible to name a few, is great. But it’s only in one aspect. It’s not the person you are but what you’re doing in bed. It was a self-destructing cycle. You have the contact then you regret it and you do it again. I think for me I needed to realize there was more to me then a certain part of my anatomy. Which, I’m guilty of using in wrong ways, and if you want to know more email me, but it’s similar to =Cuteyoboy’s blog entry “Details” (was trying to do a link, but blogger for Mac ain't takign my html. Just go to the side, click on Cuteyoboys link and read the entry). It’s the be all end all of the gay world, and trust me boys it ain’t all what it’s cracked up to be. I plan a whole entry on that, but going to do a little research first, oh get your mind out of the gutter!

So, after the test I just realized how self destructing the cycle was, and how it was time to make changes and get out from under the depression I was in. So I said no more, and that day I did it. I realized something, that most of the times when I topped, it was a chore, for a lack of better word. It really didn’t do anything for me; I just did it because it was what was expected. I looked back on the times when it felt the best, I realized it was when I was with my Ex, a guy I went on a date on, or a FB/Friend with benefit that I hung out with and also had fun with. I realized what these all had in common. These were all people that I had a connection with and liked. So I told myself you can do anything but topping, until I date. Well, as faithful readers know, LOL I’ll be waiting till we put a man on Mars before that will happen. So, I really haven’t done much over the last few year, I have really slowed down and you know I kind of like it. There is less stress and I’m a lot happier knowing I’m not getting used for something or using someone else. I also came up with the “If I don’t like you I won’ sleep with you” concept. Which has made a big difference for me. It makes the activities a lot more fun and I have virtually cut out all one nighters. I usually get with the guy several times. But one year passed, then two and I was like OMG I’m actually doing this, then three, and finally four. All my friends can’t believe that it has lasted this long.

I will say that in the last few months I have really had the urge to top. The last time I had it so strong, I took pictures of a guy I play with on occasion. And as things progressed, I really wanted to top him, and would have. But he was a top too so nothing happened. So I have been like a buck in a rut, wanting to really go at it. But and this maybe something some friends may not know but I have been looking to have a friend with benefit. Someone to hang out with go to movies and then have fun. Now I didn’t’ want one where every time we get together we have to get naked. But occasionally would be great. So I had been on the hunt and I ran across one guy who I though was really sexy. We had chatted off and on for a while. And we finally decided to meet. I found out that he has had a partner of 16 years and they play separate, and for purposes of the blog, I’ll call him blue eyes, because he has great blue eyes and HMMM what a kisser. Ok now here is where the hypocrite comes in on me. I won’t share my man but I’ll share someone else’s. I know, BAD TIM, but hey if they are open and we hit it off why not? I don’t want an open relationship, maybe one day I will because I never say never. I’ve eaten my words too many times. But I went over to Blue Eyes house, stopped and got some beer and we hung out and talked for a while. It was pretty cool we have a lot in common and it was really great. We were in the kitchen talking and we kissed, and WOW can he kiss. We went to the bedroom and just started to make out and things progressed, you know how they do. Well, here’s why he got it when so many others haven’t. He never pressured me into doing it. He said it would feel nice but he didn’t get pushy or demanding. And I was thinking, you know it’s been 4 years and is this someone who, when I look back I will mind ending it? As I thought, I said no, because I felt a real connection and we have made plans to do things and he’s a nice guy. The only thing I wish we could have done is spending the night together but I’m very happy with the experience. It was AWESOME and Blue Eyes, and me laughed about our problems with my ankle, his knee and what hell it is getting old. Today I have been achy. I thought I was coming down with something but I realized in the act of, for a lack of better term, making love, my muscles are sore LOL, it’s so funny, when I was younger I was the energizer bunny and could go four hours and not be sore. LOL it’s hell getting older. But I’m really glad I went over and I have absolutely no regrets today and hopefully will get with him often.

When I left I called J2 last night right after I got out, and he was with his man and really surprised he answered his phone. He thought I was kidding first, but I was not, and he was happy for me. I told him, “ You know if I never see him again I had fun and really enjoyed it.” But I know I’ll see him again and hopefully often. I also called my SC Man, who has a friend with the same name as Blue Eyes, and he thought I had slept with his friend (The friend lives here in Atlanta area) and his partner was out of town. SC Man and his partner thought, “OMG what is he doing his partner is out of town!” LOL I got a big laugh when they thought it was someone else. But I set them straight and it’s good. I hopefully will go over there and meet them soon.

This whole experience has taught me that I can hold on to what I believe, and not fall back into old destructive behaviors. I have been worried it’s like Pandora box and that if I top someone I’ll go right back to tricking and such, I know, kinda stupid sounding. But you always go back to what you know. And this taught me that I’m not going to do what I did and that sex isn’t a bad thing. I was getting to the point where topping was bad and it’s not, as long as it’s done for the right reason. I realized today that I have really grown up and have started to make a life for me that I am proud of. I have much needed to make these changes and I think things will be good. Just curious if anyone else out there went through this? I just can’t believe that I posted so much and so personal. Thanks for reading!

Hot Guy of the Week #3

Hmm a hot bodybuilder, one of my favs. I wish you could see the full pic of his posing trunks!



A hot redneck beefy boy. yeah can you telI like many different types? Nothing like a guy in a truck!

Disclaimer: I make no assumptions on the sexual orientation of guys in the hot guy of the week. There are guys I find that are hot!

The Week Of Unexpected Turns. – Kathy Griffin Dream, Softball, Going Out And The Family Business.

Brief announcemnt: the lunch today is Meatloaf and Mashed potatoes, oppss wrong announcment, the hot guys of the week will be posted later, I fogot to do that this AM, they are picked out and just need to be uploaded!

I was going to write this earlier in the week but this has been a bad week and I try not to write when I’m really upset or depressed. And when I write when I’m depressed I just don’t write well. It’s one of those poor pitiful me. Which I’m trying not to do. So here we go….

Saturday night I had a dream and it involved Kathy Griffin. Who is my favorite comedian right now. I dreamed that I was one of her “main gays” and I was at her house, which I think is awesome, that house is incredible. But, as it has been reported, she filed for divorce from her husband Matt, and me and one or two others. Although I don’t know who they were, well we were hanging out and just talking then all of a sudden the phone rings and we’re told something happened to Kathy and she died while on the road. No, I don’t know where this dream came from and I think it’s totally whacked! It’s one of those you wake up from and go “What the f*ck?”, the dream ended when we were running around wondering what to do about it. I have no clue where this came from and why I had it, if Kathy reads this, LOL yeah she’s going to take the time to read this, I think you’re one of the best and brightest comedians and you need another DVD! Allegedly is AWESOME! Ok, yeah I have to give her a plug since I dreamed she died. BTW she also has a pod cast on Bravo’s web site, that give some in side info on what’s happened on the shows. Go download and enjoy!

The weekend was going good, I had a group meeting for school and then hung out with my friends J and B, and had a good day and I came home early because the fall season of softball started. Well, I guess I must have been excited because I left an hour early. I got to the field and I am on the green team and I think we have a really great team. I had so much fun and I actually played! Can you believe it? I played J’s team first. I batted left handed for the fist time; I batted about the same as right, pretty much grounders and always out at first. One other area that caused a problem is my favorite bat, is also J’s favorite bat, so we had to trade back and forth. So this went on and we were pretty evenly matched. But I don’t know who told someone to hit the ball to me, since I am in right field, yeah this is the “you can’t play softball so we’re going to put you in the middle of no where” position. I think J told them to hit the ball to me. Well it was a pop fly and I ran to get it and I caught it! That’s right I got an out. I don’t know who was more surprised, my team or me. I was so happy. I don’t think J believed that I caught it! But I noticed, that J’s entire team was using the bat, well I decided to put a hex on the bat and as I said use the “power of the chicken foot,” give it some voodoo curse. It must have worked because they were ahead and we tied in the 5th inning, before time ran out, and they scored no runs on their last bat. So the voodoo must have worked. The second game was good we lost; I think we were all tired but we had fun, this season is great, I’m really going to enjoy the 5 weeks we’ll play. And J kept the bat, which his fine, cause it’s going to be cursed, I have another bat I like and I ordered a new bat today, that is much better and we’ll see how the green bat does, It will be used sparingly!

Then after softball we went to Woofs and I had a great time. The coach of our team coaches, Woofs D level team and he’s a nice guy. I went and had fun. I wasn’t that shy, I had moments but I had a great time and really enjoyed it. I met a really cute guy too, Which I didn’t find out his name till I left and he told me how funny my comments were and gave me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek. I love J, but he never introduces anyone. You just want to smack him at times! But when I talked to the cutie, won’t give him a nick name yet, he said he would go to poker the next night so I was like, “hey this could be the Operation: Date Night, date. But he was a no show. So we’ll just have to wait and see when he is back at Woofs.

So this was a good weekend and I thought the week would get better, but this was soon to change. Like a black cloud looming in the horizon. I had a case for one of my classes due and my group partner and me wrote it up and well, we were told our case sucked, well not in those words but I’m paraphrasing. “That was the worst case I’ve ever heard” was the direct quote. OK, granted it wasn’t’ the best but he wanted power point and this whole long thing, that we were like “WHAT?” it was a case on GE in Hungary, and what he said it was about, was how to keep investment in China from expanding, which I was like, are we reading the same book? So I went to Woofs and had a few drinks and came home.

This was only to be matched by problems at work. Which is family. I have some words of advice, NEVER work with family. It sucks, and I’m not talking as in it sucks a little, it sucks a lot. Now I know I haven’t had the best work experience, and have not put out my effort, but over the last year I have changed a lot and really have a different work ethic, but all the family can see is what was, and how many times a week can you be told you’re stupid before you just really don’t give a damn? That’s where I am, they don’t say I’m stupid but they imply it. If I didn’t have my Tues/Thrus class I’d be working anywhere but there. I have a few events to go to this week about how to find a job in marketing from the Atlanta AMA (American Marketing Association). So this is good timing. I don’t want to go into the whole family/work thing, I’d type more then you’d read. There are a lot of things that I don’t want to go into right now. Some of it probably when I move out, I will see differently, but right now it’s dysfunctional and driving me crazy.

But, I hope this makes sense and you can follow it. I had a friend send me who well I have been doing writing in the blog, and how better I’ve become doing it. Which I’m not sure this entry is one of my best and I hope it makes sense. I’m tired and need sleep but I wanted to write this and post this, I’ll prob have to clarify what I wrote later. I hope you have a great day and I’ll keep you posted on what’s going on.

Life's Lessons Learned

This for me is somewhat of a usual post. As many of you who have read the blog, which It think there are maybe two people outside of my friends, actually read this. I’m going to be serious for a change. And really open up. So here goes, but I’ll throw my sense of humor in too.

The last year has really been a growing experience for me. I’ve always lacked self-esteem and really have doubted everything I do. I haven’t held a job and stuff like that because I believed that I couldn’t do it or wasn’t worthy of it. I know stupid, but when you’re told for years and years you’re stupid and such, then you believe it after a while. This is due to my dyslexia. No one in school knew about it or diagnosed it or anything. So for the most of my life I’ve gone through life thinking I was stupid and couldn’t do things.

Well, that began to change when I started back to school in 1999. I almost dropped out my first semester back, I didn’t do well in either class, accounting or economics and just thought I didn’t have what it take to be back in school. I swear I almost cried home after getting my first tests back. But after some serious thought I applied myself, and other then that year I have made all A’s and B’s. I mean since I’ve been back I’ve had a 3.6 or something like that, but mixed in with my other grades I’m a 2.87 now. I took all the business classes and have learned a lot.

I used to work at a catering company delivering and then got a job through a friend at a telecommunications consulting group, which something told me not to take the job, but I did and I worked there for six months. Got laid off, and I kinda felt sorry for myself but I wasn’t devastated. So, after I finished school for the semester I came to work for my family, but as most of you know that’s driving me crazy but it taught me one thing. I know what I’m doing in business. I couldn’t believe how much of my schooling came in handy and how I knew what I was doing. This really started things coming together for me. I was like, OMG I know what I’m doing. So this experience working with family is a good and a bad one.

Another turning point in my life this year is meeting J2. This is prob the most important person in my life right now. He is the only person that I have ever really opened up too. I can tell him anything and it’s all good. It’s very refreshing to have someone like that in my life. And I’m trying to change my self and get my life on track and be the person I know I can be. I think the turning point in our relationship was when the day I got him upset about not spending anytime. Things just sort of fell into place and that day I realized a lot. We talked the following Sunday night and I just feel like I know him for so much longer then I actually have.

PS I had a great weekend and a lot happened, I will update a lot more this week. So stay tuned, just havne't had time to write, but plan to do some major writing this week!

Hot guy of the Week #2

Ok, this guy is hot, because it think he's' wearing a thong. HMM and if you've been a faithful reader of my blog you know I love dudes in thongs. Plus he's very cute, guy next door type. The kind that drive me wild.


Now this is a beefy boy. I love beefy boys too, HMMM nothing like some good All American Grade A Beef.

Hope you enjoy the guys.
Disclaimer - I make no claims to the sexual orientation of guys here, in the hot guys, they are pics I get off the net that I think are hot.