The Day After, well somewhat

Well it’s been a day and to be honest I’m pissed as hell still. More so at my friend then anything else. I was thinking about the pool and thought, well what if I was in that situation, I brought a friend with me to a bar/or event and people wanted to have sex with me and not him. What would I do. I honestly don’t think I’d ever leave my friend, it’s not fair to him to have him wait while you go out.

I’m sort of on a emotional rollercoaster right now because one minute I’m fine and the next I’m pissed. This won’t go away till I confront my friend, which is hard to do with his partner around. So I may not get to do it, I did talk to him earlier and I said I didn’t get any sleep last night because I was pissed off last night, and we’ll see.

I have learned one very important thing in this whole mess, I am growing up. How you ask? Well let me tell you. Before when I ever got mad a anyone I knew that was it, I wanted nothing to do with them. And I’m one of those people who can hole an unhealthy grudge for years, tuck it away in my memory then see the person and it’s back in full force. All the people last night I don’t hate them, I like them and will be friends I just don’t like what they did. I told one friend earlier it was like being bitch slapped around last night. Things will get better and things will improve, I still need better confrontational skills and this will help.

I’m going to go lay down watch season 3 of the West Wing and relax. I’m watching them all over from season one to season four. Then News Radio then Quincy, yes you heard me right, Quincy with Jack Kludman. I know I spelled that wrong.

Have a great one and I’ll get back on track with the dating stuff and all this week.